A friend of mine had one told me long ago that he got cheated on by his girlfriend badly. It affected me so much that I began to feel if I cheated on by boyfriend unknowingly. I know it is impossible for me to cheat physically or emotionally so I'd make myself believe that I probably sent intimate messages to guys and forgot it completely. I would try to copy paste the intimate conversations that happened two years ago with other guys when I was single to my reality and making myself believe that they some how Happened now and I deleted them. I'd go overboard to find proofs and even after confronting those guys and they telling me that no such conversation Happened, I'd still tell myself that maybe they said yes and I didn't hear it properly. What do I do? I've lost touch with what is real and what isn't.
Hi Joe. My anxiety causes me to latch on to a certain situation and totally obsess over it, going over scenarios in my head, thinking what if I said that and I didn't realise? , or did I do something to offend someone and now they don't like me. I rack my brain over and over until I convince myself I did do something, it's all in my head but totally consumes me. After years of anxiety when this happens I talk it through with someone, they reasure me it's totally irrational , it's not as bad now knowing a lot of people have this type of anxiety symptom, thought I was mad and the only one, great tips here on rumination and mindfulness, help with negative thoughts etc, also have you tried cbt or hypnotherapy, everything's worth a try, great to talk, wouldn't wish it on anybody but it's a relief to know we're not the only one with 'stinking thinking' also call it 'washing machine head'. I described it like this to my doctor and he laughed, but he said I totally get it, he sees it a lot, ( great doctor , I've been lucky, ) hope the above helps a little❤️
Hi Joe , you are not losing it. Its perfectly normal for anxiety to think of things and making up scenarios in our head knowing perfectly fine that we would never do it but this on word WHAT IF causing us so much grief. In my head I keep thinking that I will do something I dont want to cause im going to stop thinking rationally and that will ruin my life . Thats what causing me stress. What if I do it. What if I stop thinking for myself etc. Its kind of OCD intrusive thoughts.
Sometimes I keep thinking that im going to leave my husband even tho I dont want to but Im scared that Im going to do it cause Im gonna stop thinking rationally. Like Edwina said , talking thru with somebody about it helps a lot. My hubby is very supportive and every time he explains that is impossible for me to start thinking irrationally. Havent done it so far even under massive stress so why would I lost my mind now. But this is our anxiety. Thinking that we are going to do impossible things, things we wouldnt normally do. Have you tried to speak about it with your partner ? Xx