been depressed for 4 years and I suffer with suicidal thoughts all the time now
Hi paul67642,
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologies for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
If you are having these suicidal thoughts then we strongly recommend you speak to someone who may be able to help. The Samaritans offer a safe space where you can talk openly about what you are going through. They can help you explore your options, understand your problems better, or just be there to listen.
Their contact details are on our patient information leaflet here: https://patient.info/health/dealing-with-suicidal-thoughts, which also offers lots of other advice on how you can access the help you may need.
If you are having such thoughts then please do reach out to the team at the Samaritans (or the other people detailed in our leaflet) who will understand what you're going through and will be able to help.
Kindest regards
Patient
If suicidal and you live in the UK You can telephone Tel 111 and they will be able to suggest a pathway you need to follow or they arrange Medical assistance or a visit from the Crisis Team.
Are you getting assistance from your GP or other health Professionals. If not you need to contact your GP and get assessed
BOB
Hi Paul,I'm sorry to hear you are feeling like this...but i totally relate,I have felt like this for 16 years so I know the struggle you must be going through internally.
Please know you are not alone though my friend! There are so many good organisations/doctors/therapy that can help.
I know it is not much comfort when you are in that mindset as you always want an answer to everything right that min...but just think...you have made it this far,don't think to far ahead,just concentrate on the next hour,forget everything else and just concentrate hour by hour.
And I implore you,if you need to talk,about anything big or small,need a shoulder to cry on,rant and rave,please message me,I am always here if anyone ever needs an ear to chew....there be no judgement,I promise! Stay safe and sending you all the best my good man :-)
Hi Paul. If you really are feeling suicidal, to the extent you are really feeling your life is at risk, you need to get admitted into the hospital. Don't delay, do it as quickly as you can.
You will be treated by experts in depression who can put you on medication and make you feel better very quickly. But don't delay.
I am 63 and until this year I was never in a hospital overnight in my life. I was always healthy, I visited other folks in the hospital. I was diagnosed with depression at 38 and have been on Paxil since then. 24 years with no crisises. Then, my mom and brother passed away 2 days apart in 2017 (from different reasons). My dad passed away 15 years ago and my only living family is an estranged sister who is making problems for me in Probate Court over my Mom's estate. Then my wife got sick and had to go in hospital for a week. 2017 was like that for me, one thing after another after another. To make a long story short, I more or less had a breakdown-started thinking I'd be better off not living-my wife picked up on it and had my Therapist and Psychiatrist admit me to a local hospital. And they were absolutely correct to insist I go.
The stress I was going through had me not eating well, low in fluids, my medicine needed to be adjusted up because it was no longer effective after 25 years and I was sucked down the nasty hole of deep depression. A week in the hospital and I felt MUCH better. I still have my problems of course, but they are manageable now.
EVERYONE OF US has a breaking point, even strong men and women who have never been in hospital in their lives-like me. If you are genuinely feeling suicidal get admitted to hospital immediately. They can have you feeling much better in a few days to a week. Trust me, if I were you I would do it. Best of luck!
I am wondering which country you are in as I am in the UK and they certainly don't take people into hospital unless they are very bad or have attempted suicide. Even then there are so few places that most are left to cope at home. x
I live in the USA, work for a major multinational company which provides excellent health insurance (America has no national health insurance plan unless you are 65 or over, we have many private health plans you can purchase. I have a good one). I was going to a therapist weekly and the place I go to has a Psychiatrist on staff to handle medication. I was struggling emotionally, my therapist wanted me to talk to the Psychiatrist about medication and she asked me if I was thinking of suicide-I told her I was 50:50 desiring to keep living and, with that, she insisted my wife drive me to the Emergency Entrance at the closest hospital and be admitted for 'suicide concern'. That hospital had no Psychiatric Wing, but they transferred me to another local hospital which did.
As it turned out, I only spent a night in Hospital and then the Psychiatrists there released me on an Outpatient Therapy program. I took a week off work on medical (you don't have to tell them the reason and I have a great work record) and attended this program. It was very relaxing, restful and I felt much improved after a week off.
My therapist and Psychiatrist were absolutely correct to insist I go in hospital, I was in bad shape and not thinking rationally anymore. In the USA merely contemplating suicide is sufficient concern to get you admitted to hospital-especially if you have good insurance and no record of doing this sort of thing in the past as an 'escape'. Once you get admitted for this, the Psychiatrists on staff at the hospital determine if you should be inpatient or outpatient during your recovery. It's largely based on your interview with them and they err on the side of caution. In my case, I was able to convince them that a nights good rest, good food, saline drip raised my fluids, was sufficient to release me to the outpatient program.
Don't mess around if you are seriously thinking about suicide. Each one of us has a breaking point and the concern is that you might, in an act of rashness, do something to hurt yourself. Don't take that chance. Good luck!
Wow.. it is definitely not like this in UK, especially in Scotland where I live. I guess our NHS is just pushed to capacity it just can't cope.. plus there are very few psychiatric beds. I took a serious paracetamol overdose last year and was admitted to a and e overnight with a NAC drip.. was discharged following day still very much suic*dal and with lots of stockpiled meds in my bag.