Been detached and out of this world ever since I knew I was going to university

Mental health
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Before results day I didn't know whether I'd get into university and because it was a highly ranked uni I always thought it safe too presume I wasn't going even though I wanted too. When I got my results I was relieved and had only slept 4 hours that night, I got a new MacBook and went to work, I hadn't eaten much that day and had a shift, I felt really detached that day and as if my mind and body were separate entities, when I went out clubbing that night I got so drunk I ended up getting kicked out of a club for throwing up and none of my friends were there for me, I got picked up by my mum on the streets throwing up and crying, ever since then I've found that everything makes me nervous and anxious, I feel I can't drink or smoke weed because I don't even have a hold on myself as it is sober, I feel completely different and out of sync with my body, I've developed a fear of buses and being in cramped places suddenly when previously these fears were in heard of, obviously this links to going to university which I'm incredibly scared of, However why does this mean that I am completely zoned out and feel separate to my body all of a sudden, my anxiety is extreme and I am constantly over thinking, I've tried meditation and breathing etc but I can't seem to get better, can anyone help me, the thought of getting drunk at freshers scares the hell out of me even though I've been drunk before, I feel like if I can barely look after myself now then how could I then when I'm supposed to be making friends, when I'm working I always appear confident and put together because I'm hoping to go into business, yet when I go home I have these dark thoughts. Are there any definitive methods to cure this, keep my mind on this world or something??

Thanks

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This is when I fell apart. Precisely. In college. It is a tramatic time. I was diagnosed later with anxiety and bipolar disorder. I went through college with low self esteem, comparing myself to others. It was a really hard time. Is there any way you could get into a doctor for diagnosis?   I was later given prozac for anxierty and it helped me so much. A low dose, just kept me calm and able to perform.  Good luck to you. And seek help medically before you waste this time in your life, which is so important........ good luck...

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Hello Guy, sorry to hear what your going through, but your post concerns me a little, as you seem more worried about the fact you cant face Weed, and getting drunk.

Understand at your age drink can be a big part of your social life, but Weed, well now a different matter, its thats which can make you paranoid, and out of control. Again believe me I know weed is used by many especially young people, but it does like all drugs cause many side effects .

You are understandably nervious and anxious about Uni, and stepping into th unknown, that is human nature, But I feel you are concentrating on and worrying more about your social life.

To feel detached or zoned out is your minds way of dissasociating you from the problem in hand, I have felt this way many times.

You must address the main worry, namely, the Uni problem, make yourself deal with this anxiety, whether its because you are concerned about moving away, or maybe you feel you may be out if your depth, even if you really want to go to Uni, address it, face it, even talk it over with someone else, whatever you do, once you have made yourself face the fear, all your other concerns will disappear.

I wish you well, and a wonderful time at Uni,

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Hi,

Yes v stressful time for u. Lots of things happening at once.

I had problems at end of 1st year at uni and the weed did not help. I became paranoid and a bit delusional but it crept up on me so couldn't see it coming.

If you do one thing please stay off the weed. It could be the best thing you do as u start uni.

The disassociation might be a symptom of the weed and even if it's not weed can complicate things as you are still young. There's reports that it can cause mental health problems later on more so the younger you smoke it. Believe me 18 is still young in my experience.

You'll probably be anticipating lots of drink lots of drugs lots of parties but you will come across students who have decided not to take drugs and that is a very mature attitude to have.

If your worried about the over drinking, drink in moderation. Not everyone will be drinking till they're dead.

I hope this advice helps, it's not meant to scare you, just make you more aware of what can happen so u can make informed choices.

I will say Tho that the weed for me triggered yrs of anxiety and then psychosis.

Good luck everyone else will be scared too.

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thank you for your advice, typing out these issues and talking them over has really helped to see that all the things which i worry about are in my control and can be dealth with logically, - namely not drinking much or smoking at all. 

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thank you - i will definitely follow your advice and have always stayed away from weed when i am sad or extremly emotional etc... however it seems to cause more problems. yes i think that drinking in moderation would be best at least in the initial week when i don't know where everything is etc. thank you very much Sir.