It's so hard being different, being someone nobody can relate to, feeling like you're so needy yet nobody wants to hear it! Yes I know I sound pathetic and immature but I am a baby...in my head I am anyway!
I just want to be normal/accepted! Yet I feel I'm always kept at arms length! I just wish I knew why, I just wish I knew how to change. I'd give anything to not be me....anything ! 😢
You are not 'different' to any of us who also struggle with the same sort of things. Other people can never give you what you need as it is insatiable. You can start to heal yourself and sort out your own needs. That's you need to do rather than relying on others being able to do it for you. That is impossible. No matter how much attention and love you get from others it will never be enough as it never is. I am talking from experience here.
Hi there,
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us, so sorry to hear how you feel.
You are not alone, I suppose we all at some point feel like we want to be someone else, at least for a little while to ease the burnen carried on our own shoulders. May I ask, if you had a free choice to be anyone you'd like, who would you like to be?
Best, Jen
Hi again dondons - I ahve to take issue with statements in your post. First, We are all different. It's what makes this world so vibrant, unpredictable, and with such variety. No two things are the same - not even snowflakes ar grains of sand. Amazing. There is no such thing as 'normal.' Normal is a term used by those who think the way they are or what they percieve is the only way. Crap. Being accepted? You can expect to be accepted if you can't accept yourself. The same with love. How can a person expect anyone to love them if they don't love themselves? One of the problems with this world is the notion that we have to have certain things to be loved accepted: movie star looks, fame, money, position, wisdom - the list goes on. They are vacuous, fleeting, and shallow. They are just a slice of all the possibilities in this world, all the oddities and individualities that make the human race so interesting.
Change is always happening. If you want the sort of change that you think you need to be 'accepted' then you will have to work for it. But sometimes the worst thing that can happen to us to get what we wish for, putting in all that energy and finding when we get there that it wasn't what we thought it was and wishing we were back where we were.
I bet there are those out there who, when meeting you, think you have it all and they wish they could be like you. You are utterly unique and you should be damn proud of that.
Sorry I'm having a bad day with the key board. I meant: "You CAN'T expect to be accepted if you can't accept yourself. The same with love...."
What you say makes sense, it's just hard x
Nobody in particular just someone "normal" someone who can sleep then wake without the feeling of dread. Be able to do day to day tasks without it being so hard and be able to believe that I am cared for x
Thank you but that's just it, I can't accept being me x