8) WELL HERE GOES,THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IVE EVER DONE ANYTHING LIKE THIS.IVE HEARD THESE MESSAGE BOARDS ARE VERY USEFUL.I HAVE BIPOLAR,AND SOCIAL PHOBIA,BUT HAVE BEEN TOLD I CONTRADICT MYSELF. I WAS ABUSED AS A CHILD AND THROWN OUT TO WORK AT 13.I HAD NO CHOICE.IVE BEEN UNEMPLOYED FOR SIX WEEKS,WHILST I WAS WAITING TO GO TO COLLEGE.I HAVE A CERTIFICATE IN SOCIAL CARE,AND HAVE BEEN IN MY PRESENT JOB FOR 19 YRS.I WOULD LOVE A NEW JOB,BUT NOBODY WANTS ME DUE TO MY,ANXIETY,AND LACK OF ENERGY.I WOULD LOVE TO GO BACK TO MY RUNNING,WHEN I HAD MY FIRST PANIC ATTACK THAT WAS WHEN MY TROUBLES BEGAN AND I FINISHED MY RUNNING.I USED TO RUN HALF MARATHONS,AND NOW CANT EVEN RUN FOR A BUS.I SPEND A LOT OF MY TIME AS ONE OF THESE PATIENTS,WHO HAS STUDENTS ASK THEM QUESTIONS,I HATE IT,BUT HOW ELSE DO THEY LEARN.IVE MADE A NEW FRIEND OF LATE,SHE WAS QUITE AMUSING.ASKING ME THIS AND ASKING ME THAT,I FOUND OUT SHE WAS A FRAUD INVESTIGATOR WORKING FOR THE BENEFITS BRANCH,SO GO CAREFUL WHO YOU TALK TO.SHE CANT BELIEVE I SUFFER WITH BIPOLAR EITHER.WHY ELSE WOULD I BE TAKING LITHIUM,AND SEEING A CONSULTANT AT THE DOP.
there are many posts on here, & all seem to be anxiety-related.chocolate is quite useful for elevating your mood: & i use this in moderation cos it helps stimulate the secretion of serotonin in the brain.
So great to read your posting. I have just been diagnosed with BPD, though realised at the start of the year that BPD explained so much of my experiences over so many years. The thing I responded to was your struggle to get back running again. I too used to run fairly long distances - often cross country, but in the last 2 years it feels like I've lost every last ounce of fitness I ever had. I also think that long-distance aerobic repetitive exercise has really beneficial effects on mood. I hope you can get back to it. I'll keep your posting in mind as a spur to get me back running again too. Cheers.
I've been unemployed 2 years and diagnosed BPD 1 year ago. I don't think I will ever go back to my life as a carpenter - to much stress. You need to take your time - relax and get to know the disorder so you can come to terms with a new lifestyle.
I am now so unfit I can't run for a bus either - but at least you have a job and are able to keep it.
Ask your Psych to try you on Quetiapine 200mg at night - it really helps me chill out and since first taking it I have lost the anxiety you seem to be suffering.
Take care of yourself