Hey. I haven't written for a little while. The last week and a half had been great and I was feeling very good and happy and not anxious. My husband was off work for holidays last week and today was his first day back to work. I didn't wake Anxious but he left for work an hour ago and now I am feeling anxious and crying and feeling sad and miss him. I am scared it's going to be back to bad days again and that I was only ok because he was home for a bit. Or is it just a blip? .The last week and a half I was feeling like I was getting so much better. I just want to keep getting better. Feeling mad at myself for letting him back at work affect me....
Hi Isabel, if it's any consolation I feel like I've taken a step back too. Don't want to think I'm going back to that horrible place just over a few iffy days.
Hi Isabel...I had a blip over Christmas also...I felt exactly right back to square one after being on cit for 4 months and feeling great!! I'd been ill and had the flu!! My GP told me it would pass as I wanted to up my meds...and he was right...it did!! I felt like crap for about a week then suddenly snapped out of it again!! He also said the time of year adds to it also!! You will be fine sweetie!! Try thinking of all the positives that this year will bring for you!! Plan things for the summer!! Plan days/nights out for you and your family to get you through the new year months!! I no it's so difficult when you're feeling so low...but it helped me through my week of sadness!! Look forward to your hubby coming home from work!! Plan a nice dinner!! Hope these ideas help you Isabel...as it's awful when you feel bad xx
You know that Monday blue feeling ..... had a great weekend or a fantastic holiday and your heart sinks when you get back to normal life. That's what most people feel. However, when you're ill or recovering you feel that 10 x worse than normal people. Also when you feel good you do things you'd normally and forget you're still recovering so following Christmas celebrations, no doubt your body is now reminding you that whilst it was great, its now tired and is having a dip.
So yes, its a blip. Lots of things can cause a blip, especially over doing things ..... and of course sometimes nothing can cause it. Its all part of recovery, and if you let it be there it'll ease in time.
Don't feel mad at yourself for being affected - its just your body doing what it knows best. As you recover more your body won't react like this.
K x
How would you differentiate between a temporary blip and a real reason to increase the dose or suspect that a change in AD is needed. (Been on citalopram 20mg for 4 mths).
Thank you KC
Often difficult to know really unless you've given the meds a long enough time and you've had absolutely no breaks in the low mood and had no elevated moods all that time perhaps?
If you've had waves of feeling great mixed with low moods then after 4 months I'd personally keep going for a little longer, but if you've had hardly any good feelings then maybe its time to increase?
My son took Fluoxetine some years ago, and after about 6 months even though he had slight elevated mood occasionaly I was beginning to wonder if he should change meds when it suddenly started happening for him. Took 9 months for him.
So yes, really all depends on how you've been up to now. It is always 3 steps forward and 2 steps back all the way through .... frustrating.
K x
Whilst I haven't felt absolutely fantastic, I have had lots of days where I've felt normal. Thing is its complicated due to awful insomnia , restless leg syndrome and not enjoying good sleep. I've always attributed feeling iffy to just a lack of sleep and always usually feel better a few hours after getting up. Felt rubbish all day today though
Hi Isabel it will be just a blip I'm good most days but have a blip from time to time and have been in 10mg of Citalopram 6 weeks now. I find that if I go to bed no later than 11 and get up about 7 and stay in a routine e I'm much better
It seems like you are lonely and hopefully that will pass over time.
You have possibly had a nice Christmas and New Year with your husband.
I cannot relate to your bad days,?
BOB
Im fixing to start 10mg Citolopram (generic Celexa- may not have spelled it rt) for a wk or 2 then go up to 20mg. This will be my 7th med to try. Others have either not helped mentally or made me really sick physically almost toxicity. Im a little nervous to try it but what do I have to loose? It might work. A question though, anyone have irregular heart beat or heart issues? How does this do on anxiety? I know Ill prob have loose bowels, maybe increase in anxiety (i take Klonapine 0.5mg half a pill as needed)maybe a lousy appetite for a while, maybe crying at first (maybe not!). Just wondering. An remember people who haven't been diagnosed with depression or anxiety are not always happy either. So Im not expecting to be happy every single day. Just improve my mood fr these depths of sorrow constantly. That's just my opinion. No offense intended. I know exercise is very important an Omega 3s (a good quality one is not cheap!) An some kind of counseling an stress reduction like yoga, meditation or some kind of group activity.. I know I feel better after walking out in fresh air an get my heart rate up.
Just ideas. Thankyou.
Yeah I know what you mean. Hard to stop your mind from thinking that too.
How are you doing?
Thank you for the advice and ideas!
How come this time of year adds to it?
I felt better by yesterday afternoon but once again this morning feeling anxious and sad.
You always say such great things and good advice thank you. I felt better by the afternoon yesterday but once again really anxious and sad this morning. I'm happy i had great days the last while and hope it just keeps getting better and better.
Yea sleep helps. The last couple days I haven't been sleeping as well as I had been. And then wide awake early and can't fall back asleep.
But by the afternoon yesterday I felt better but this morning sad and anxious yet again. Frustrating.
How are you?
Yes I had a lovely holiday and anxiety was mostly gone and I didn't think about it much. But since my husband is back at work and I'm home with our 3 year old I'm thinking about that Anxiety again so I'm anxious to get back to the bad
Hi isabel, for some reason I felt anxious this morning and had to resort to a tiny dose of valium. Just hope it passes!
Where do you live Isabel? I live in the U.K...and its very cold..dark nights and dark mornings...and I guess people get the Christmas blues...after having time out with there families then having to go back to work...think that's what my doctor meant!! The trouble with cit...I don't think there's any answers as people are so different! Although I have heard on here many times that people feel at there lowest in a morning! And start to feel better as the day goes on!! I take my medication early afternoon as I work shifts so it makes easier for me!! When I first started on cit...I instantly felt better...like within a day...and again...I think that's very rare also!! The side effects of what people talk about...was exactly how I felt before I started the meds...again we are all different! That's why when I was feeling so low over Christmas...I thought my meds needed upping again!! But as it is...it was a blip and hopefully over it again!! But it did last a week...a horrible long week that felt never ending xx
Hi, I'm ok and mornings are ok for me once I'm up and had food etc. I've been having some counselling yesterday and I cried a lot as it brought stuff up I needed to get out do feel a bit tired today but veennout for a lovely walk and I know I will be back to normal soon. We will all get there x
I live in Montreal,canada. Very cold here also and been freezing rain and snowing a lot lately. Snowing a lot right now as I write this.
Yeah I understand, I felt so good over the holidays and now back to regular every day routine it makes me think of the anxiety again.
Back in September I went to my father in law's and his wife was going on and on about how people who just stay at home and do nothing and play games are a waste to society and should get killed off. I don't agree with this at all and I am a stay at home mom with my 3 year old. And since she said this i started thinking that I am contributing nothing and what am i doing for the world and what am I supposed to be doing? I know it's important to be there for my son but she made me feel like I wasn't doing enough and that I need to have this big fancy important job to matter. And it's been bugging me and also has sort of added to my anxiety and depression. I am very sensitive and never feel good enough,so that conversation bothered me.
I'm not surprised you feel like that. Thing is, unless you've had anxiety yourself you can't possibly know how truly awful it is. Take no notice I'm sure you're a great mum. I feel pretty useless myself as I'm supposed to be back at work next week but have the jitters thinking about it. Never been like this before, I would never believe it could happen to me!