I have pcos and I am starting to wonder if the condition exacerbates a problem that I have: A couple of times a month I experience small bouts of depression and anxiety, which I have worked out is related to when I'm ovulating and just before my period starts. I don't think that it's 'normal' PMT.
It varies in severity, but I feel like it's getting worse as I get older. I'm a total emotional f***wit during this time- anything has the potential to make me cry. I feel lethargic, but can't get a good night's sleep. I'm overwhelmed by multiple tasks and make mistakes on simple things. I get really frustrated and angry.
I can be surrounded by people that I love, but feel isolated and lonely. I feel needy, but I don't want to socialise or for people to see me- It's the time when I feel at my ugliest and fattest. I'm more critical of myself than at any other time and I feel paranoid that other people don't like me.
It could be a bright, sunny day, but if I can get away with it, I'll close the curtains and won't go outside. I won't even get dressed.
At the time, I don't feel like there's anything that can fix it or like I will ever be able to snap out of it.
I can usually hide it quite well, but I'm just going through the motions and Inside I'm feeling absolutely miserable.
I always forget what causes it or that it's coming, even though it happens like clockwork and, even if I did expect it, I wouldn't be able to prevent it from happening because my hormones hijack my body and my mind.
It only lasts for about a day or two and, like I said, sometimes it's not as severe as other times.
I want to find a way to control this problem and not feel like this because I hate it.
Most of the time I am a very optimistic and generally happy, relaxed and independent person.
Has anybody else ever experienced this and overcome it (preferably without the use of drugs, such as anti-depressants)? I haven't raised these issues with my GP, because I feel like if I mention the symptoms above, I will be prescribed anti-depressants, which you have to take every single day. I can't take the pill anymore, unfortunately. All of my PCOS symptoms have become worse over the last year, since I came off of the pill. I didn't find out I had it until then.