So this may be a but long I apologize, but I seriously need some guidance.
I've been with my boyfriend for a little over a year. About 4/5 months ago he gave me the herpes simplex virus one, genitally. About a week ago, I actually just got my first cold sore ever in my life. I'm his first girlfriend, he was born with HSV1 orally. No foul play just happened However ever since, he does NOT touch me. No cuddling at night. No good morning kiss. Nothing. We haven't had sex now in weeks. When we first got diagnosed, he still showed affection but now it's like he doesn't even want to sleep in the same bed as me.
It's really hard for me to not feel resentment towards him, you just ruined my sexual and mental health, and now I'm stuck with you and you can't even be good to me? I feel so ugly, lost and stuck. No other man in his right mind would be with me if I tell them from the beginning "Hey I have genital herpes" and it's not like I could ever NOT tell someone. I don't know who to even talk to about this, it's been so hard ever since I got diagnosed..
Hi sweetie. I hope you are feeling better. This forum is here to help and support you throughout your journey of acceptance and peace.
From personal experience, after I told the guy that gave me HSV 2, he stopped talking to me and left my life completely.
Now, I have better perspective that I don't have to be with someone that knowingly infected me. You are entitled to get upset with your partner. And you do not have to be with him.
I know it may sound difficult to start all over, but that's what I'm doing at the moment. It's just been a couple of days since I found out, but this forum has helped me to come in terms with my diagnosis.
He has lived with it all his life and shouldn't feel like he's gross or that you are after he gave it to you. If since posting you've talked with him, how did it go? I hope you told him how you feel and that you missing his affection and doesn't he miss yours? You deserve his respect. If he doesn't like you anymore, what does he plan to do treat every girl he's with this way till he gets over it and wishes he just treated you well in the first place !