For a long time, after stopping anti depressants, I have been doing well. Was fine with family on Christmas Day. On Boxing Day visited friends of relatives, and there were about 14 people there. I did not know some of them. I was fine for a couple of hours, we played games and chatted, and then I found myself switching off, and started crying. Felt such a fool and ashamed. People were kind and understanding, but I let myself down.
I cannot buck up now and am tearful.l My birthday in two days and family want to take me out, but not sure I will be able to cope. I was doing so well. Really upset with myself as thought I was over the depression. Now feel I am back where I was.
Sorry i cannot help but you have not let yourself down - that is the way Depression goes , one minute you feel happy with life then all of a sudden it bites you , it was good to hear that those people you were with understood as that makes it less embarrassing , do not get cross with yourself , see how you feel for your Birthday - if you don't feel up to it then don't push yourself maybe delay the outing until another day , sorry i cannot do more , thinking of you x
Oh dear Anne, please, please do not feel bad, people understand and are sympathetic.xx go and have a word with your doctor, this may be just a blip, as for your birthday, your family will be very supportive in every way that they can, so try to enjoy it.... you should be very proud of how far you have come xx I wish you a wonderful birthday and good mental health, take care, kind regards to you. Deirdre xx
Oh Anne, I'm so sorry to hear you've had a blip however that is all it is. You've given me some excellent advice recently and if it were me writing what you just have, you would say the same to me. Christmas is such an emotional time and we want it to be perfect but very often that doesn't happen. We have high expectations of ourselves especially when others expect us to be on good form. Tomorrow is another day, don't expect too much and you may surprise yourself. You will be ok again I'm sure x
Anne you have not let yourself down at all. You did really well to handle the situation which must have been hard. Maria is sort of right you do things when you are ready , but dont stop or avoid things as this will make you feel worse as the brain will think its ok.
I am sure your family are great and they just want to help , it just findng the balance between allowing them to but also having control of what you want, and not what others think is best for you
Please try not to judge yourself too harshly Anne.
Christmas is a stressful time of year.
We put unrealistic expectations on ourselves and beat ourselves up if we dont meet our own high standards.
Remember all the positives regarding your recovery and how far you have come..
Try to enjoy the Rest of your day and remember you have nothing to be embarressed about.
Take care
Jo
hi anne sorry to hear what happen dont be to hard on your self we all have what i would call a hiccup or whoops ! i can go for ages and be fine and i dont handle crowded places well at times ! can you ask your doctor for a low dose of something to help you short term i was thinking of diazepam it would help it the short term ! god bless you anne and hope all goes well xx david
Hi I am sorry to hear that but it doesn't necessarily mean your depression is back. People without depression can break down and cry and they do for whatever reason. So I would go out with your family but just tell them you are generally feeling a bit upset at the moment - you don't have to say why - and you might have to leave early. They should understand that ok. Good luck. x
Hey Anne....i happy for you because u have got over the depression for a long time like you saiid...but just because it came back doesn't mean it's over and it going to stay.....just like how you faced it last time do it again.....nothing has the right to take away your happiness which is a gift from God.....so stay strong....use this as an advantage to thrive....and to come back stronger than before....not let it overtake you....don worry from what u said....I can see your family is very caring towards how ur feeling....and don forget God is always with you stay strong and let him be your guide....Jesus loves you....take care!!!
Hey Anne, it might sound silly but depression does that to you. you most def didnt let yourself down. you showed that your are who you are ...its a terrible illness that can creep up when you least expect it. dont beat yourself up, its not wrong to feel this way and i hope that you will realise this without being hard on youself. i wont say things like stay strong or it will pass because they are irrelevant, and mean nothing...you are doing really well considering you are off medication...keep fighting x
Thank you for your kind words Maria. It helped me to see it is just a blip.
Thank you Deirdre. I don't think I need to see doctor. Promised myself I would try and cope and only go if really think I cannot manage.
Yes you are right, I am pleased that I have come this far. Happy New Year. Let us hope it is better for all of us here.
Hi Gen. Yes you are right, I would say the same to you, bless you. It was a blkip, and I must move on. Tomorrow is my birthday, and I must try and be cheerful for my lovely family. Yes I have fought depressi9n for many years, and I must congratulate on how I have fought.
Happy and healthy New Year to you. Hope you feel better in 2015
Thank you Jimmy. Bless you for your kind words. I am battling on. It was a blip. No I wont avoid things. Seeing my family for my birthday tomorrow, and am determined not to break down again.
Dear Jo, thank you for your kind words. Everyone here is so kind and helpful. Bless you and everyone here who answered.
I hope 2015 is a better year for you.
Bless you David and everyone here who have sent me such kind and supportive words. It has meant so much to me.
I will be OK.
Thank you. You are right. I must put this episode behind me and move on. I will keep fighting as I always have.
Such woinderful supportive people here. Means so much to me. Bless you lovely people for making me see this is just a hiccup.
Thank you. I want to say thank you to all you lovely people personally because you have helped me so much through this episode.
I will stay strong and fight as I always have.
At lease my family know I have depression, and my daughter particularly has seen me through many years of ups and downs. I stay strong and fight for them so they do not have to worry about me too much. No I will stay strong, as best I can.
Thank you so much all you lovely people here. It means so much to me that so many people have sent such lovely, supportivemessages. It has really helped me so much.
Yes consiudering I am off medication I am doing well.
That is okay - sadly we get moments like those upsets , we could have alll the love in the world , family and friends around but then the next minute we get tearful - no explanations as to why it just happens , we get emotional and we cannot control them , it is all apart of our lives but the important thing to remember is that those closest to us understand but even better when those who don't know us so well understand and that is important , you take each part of the day as it comes , if you don't feel up to doing something one day you have got the next so take care and let your family pamper you if they want to and take pleasure in knowing that they love and care about you xx