I've been taking venlafaxine 37.5 mg x2 and propranolol 40mg x3 daily for around two weeks now, and this may sound silly, but is it possible they can not be having as good as effect than before already??
It's just i can't sleep and when i do I'm waking up really early, i can't eat after a certain time in the afternoon which means in only really getting a bit of food per day e.g today i had toast this morning....that's it.....i'm feeling more anxious today than i have in a while....i mean i actually thought that during my doctors appointment tomorrow i could ask them to reduce the amount of Propranolol I'm taking, now in going to ask for something stronger.
I'm just running out of options, my anxiety is getting worse and my CBT is still just under 2 weeks away, I'm also starting to scare myself with the prospect of having full blown panic attacks again and getting more physical symptoms, like the lump in my throats come back and the nauseous feelings.
I'm scared.....really scared, I've come so far, i don't want to go back to what it was!!
I'm also starting to worry about work because on the sick I'm not earning enough to keep me and my partner afloat (he doesn't work at the moment) but I've also become a little agoraphobic, like i cant spend long periods away from home or i become anxious which is stopping me from going back to work. I'm a support worker and cant be depressed or freak out around my residents, they'd probably do the same back!!
Things are just really getting on top of me at the moment, this panic/anxiety disorder coupled with the new agoraphobia and depression has taken over my whole life. I don't socialise anymore unless people come to me, I'm off sick from work at the moment and i feel I'm making my partner suffer because of my conditions, and i feel bad for him which is making the anxiousness worse because i feel I'm loosing him........i'm just a mess at the moment, but i don't think there's anything else my doctor can/will do for me.
I just need help...😭
Danielle x
Hi danielle,
you are on quite a lot of medication at the moment, do you really think that upping it will help you? By the look of things your anxiety levels are through the roof because your mind is wandering about things beyond your control. Try and do what you can to sort yourself out before sorting out the world around you. Small steps not big worries about things you cannot control.
Hope you feel better soon
Richard
Hello Danielle,
Look I know anxiety can cause all these feelings,but this not wanting to eat,trouble sleeping,lumps in the throat,all sound like what I used to get years ago,in the end they found a duodenal ulcer in my tummy,didn't get much pain but wow all those things you have were there.
And you know why I got that,well yes,you got it...worry!
I don't know what to suggest but I can tell you that most anti-depressants upset me,propanolol,well I get the slow heartbeat and headache,I refused them in the end.
However you need something obviously,so give it a bit longer and if no improvement get back to your doctor ASAP and ask for an alternative medication,Alprazolam,Xanax,mind you,much persuasion may be required,doctors don't usually hand them out readily,but from what you've said you need something with more
strength.
I wish you well!
Yours Malc
Thanks for the responses guys, i really appreciate them.
To Richard, I understand where your coming from, really i do, I was apprehensive about taking medication in the first place, and had such a bad time on citalopram i almost didn't take another antidepressant. But in the same respect id do anything not to go back to how i was before the propranolol....i almost went crazy.....and i cant help but worry about the things around me, like work and my partner, family and friends, because that's who i am, they make 'me' ....I feel if i let them go i have nothing, and i don't want to ever be that depressed again......I thank you for the advice but id get drugged up to the eyeballs if it helped......you see, and i can admit this, when it comes to my mental disorders and what not, I have a very addictive personality, now i don't have an addictive personality with anything else mind. Firstly i was addicted to keeping close family contact, whether it was 3pm or 3am, if i had a panic attack i called them, couldn't help it, now its the drugs and i know next it will be the therapy, but i cant help myself, really i cant.
To Malcolm, I should have also stated in that first message i get paranoid about my health, but you weren't to know.....I've already been on diazepam once when i was at my most manic, last week, so my doctor definitely wont prescribe anything else like that for a long time....Is there anything else you can suggest that may help??
sincerely wishing you all the best
Danielle x