i'm 21 So since last year when a few health problems turned up and I was faced with surgery I couldn't stop thinking about death and the act of dying and what/if anything happens afterwards.
I think about this everyday and I just want to be normal again. I have a fear that i'm going to choke to death and die and have been like that since i was 12 and had a little breakdown at 13 and was fine after that but felt myself getting bad again lately.
I'm so depressed lately, nothing brings me joy. Everyone at my job hates me and no one talks to me, i have no friends mostly because i wouldn't go out and stopped texting back and everyone got tired of it.
I thought i would be fine after christmas but i'm just getting worse. I want to be okay, i want somebody to love me, i want to start loving myself but i've been like this since i was a child so i think im stuck like this,
i looked for therapists in my area but they're no good with fake diplomas and my insurance won't cover it online.
You’re not alone I think about something happening to me everyday. It’s a struggleine all started back in 2010 when I started thinking about death n my deceased loved ones and the fact they actually gone forever to the point it scared me and I’ve been replying that night every since I’ve thought about it so much to the point it done took over my mind. I just want to be normal again 😩
Fear has taken you over. It starts with anxiety, negative thoughts and fear.
I used to have the fear of death until I saw it was wasting my life. I wasted 20 years doing that and nothing bad ever happened. I can’t get one of those days back to enjoy, they are gone forever.
The truth is that we won’t live forever. Once I acknowledged and accepted that, I began to enjoy life.
There is absolutely nothing we can do about that.
Worry is a useless emotion. It causes health issues, depression, fear, so that you are “frozen “ in life and miss out on so much!
Enjoy one day at a time . Appreciate your life and the beauty of the world!
Do things you enjoy, be active, laugh and relax.
One of the biggest regrets of elderly people is not living each day fully. Too much time was spent on fear and worry.
Listen to meditations on you tube for anxiety, fear, Overthinking, etc.
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