I believe you have mentioned this before and it's fear that has taken a hold of you .
Fear is worry about the future that doesn't exist and is only a concept in this moment.
Why do you think you will die soon? What evidence or fact do you have?
Do you know that we are not our thoughts? Our thoughts, good and negative are fleeting all day long . They Come in our mind and they go out. You are the observer of the thoughts but you are observing from a distance . Think of your thoughts as SEPARATE from you.
SO, when you get a negative thought. Calmly observe and acknowledge it for a few seconds. Then watch it float off and dissolve. It's not you! Completely separate!
But you are allowing it to linger and drive you to FEAR, HOPELESSNESS, AND NEGATIVITY.
FEAR HAS PARALYZED YOUR PLANS FOR YOUR FUTURE.
YOU HAVE CHOSEN TO ALLOW THIS. THATS WHY YOUR FUTURE IS FOGGY AND DARK IN YOUR HEAD.
BUT you don't have to Allow it. Stand strong and determined!
ITS YOUR CHOICE .
Dont let go of the chance for a successful, bright future. Be a Fighter for yourself!
Dont let Fear rule you. Fear is not logical. There is no reason in the world why you cannot enjoy a great life.
Get counseling for support and to learn new positive ways to come out on top !!
Never give up!
Listen to great meditations on you tube for anxiety, being successful, happiness, etc
Thats what you need. Love yourself, be good to yourself, focus on your goals and you will begin to see how much you have to offer this world! ❤️❤️❤️