So i am 22 years old and i suffer from depression and i am currently taking prozac.
I have been feeling a bit better and more energised on the prozac but the last few days i haven't been taking it out of feeling extremely exhausted and i am worrying that this will effect it working i have started to take them today again and i just hope they start working again.
I have been off for the xmas holiday period since christmas eve now and i return on January the 6th.. today i have felt as if i dont want to do anything at all yet i forced myself to go out.. started to feel dizzy and really low then i went to a pet shop to look at cages and the woman would not help me so i had a look myself and she cheekily told me to watch what im doing as id break her cages.. i got upset and annoyed and ended up leaving as i was really looking forward to getting my new pet a cage.. then silly sensitve me ended up crying on the way home and feeling hopeless and pathetic. Also feel like giving up eating as i hate the way i look and deciding not to have dinner tonight as i hate myself.. i have put on 3 stone in the past year and a half due to comfort eating and i really cant cope anymore. I am sick of these feelings and just feel as if there isnt a way out anymore. I wish the prozac will start working again because i feel as if i am not good enough for anyone anymore. I feel myself constantly apologizing to my boyfriend and friends because of the way i am even when they say i have done nothing wrong... i really wish this sensitiveness will go away.
Also i am really worrying about going back to work as i despise it and i am really struggling and have no motivation.. my doctor offered me a two week line but all i could worry about is the work i never done and id feel like a failure if i took time off. My boss has already pulled me in saying ive been off sick to much and ive tried my best to be better but its really hard to get motivation nowadays.
Hope someone sees this and im glad ive got this off my chest..
i really dont know what to do with my life anymore help me.
It is good to get things off your chest. You sound like me, being hard on yourself and picking out the negatives rather than recognising the positives.
I am trying to set myself little goals each day and trying to find positives.
I know it is difficult and it is easy to focus on the negatives thoughts and feelings.
Take care xxxx
Hi.....I am happy for you that you feel better when you shared this here....well that's the one thing you can do.....well one thing I would like to say is done hate yourself.....the way you look or whatever no one can ever be the same as someone else.....you are special,beautiful and unique in your own way....stay strong.....and Don let anyone tell you otherwise.....And about work find the joy in it.....try maybe looking at in another point of view....and whatever hardships your feeling inside....let it out and don't keep it to Yourslef that will make you feel much Worse...Maybe you can share with your bf about the things that are bothering you.....and always remember no matter what....God is always there for you.....you are never alone....stay safe.....Jesus loves you....How Are you doing??
You must take anti depressants every day for them to have any effect. You cannot take them as and when as it does not work like that. You will get side effects when you first start taking them, so give it a few weeks to let it get into your system.
I cry at every silly little thing, so that it not unusual for you to do that when someone upsets you. Depression does take away all our self esteem, and we do not lijke ourselves or feel good enough for anyone. That is usual too, honestly. I have felt like that so many times. It is the illness doing that to yo9u.
Take time to look after yourself. Don't go back to work until you feel you are able to cope. I was off work lots of times, for months, with depression, and no, bosses don't always understand.
I am glad you have been able to talk to us here. I understand completely how you are feeling.
Please take your medication every day and see how you go. Don't stop it for at least 6 months, or even longer, that is what is advised. I was on anti depressants for 20+ years, and so I do know how you are feeling.
Take care and keep posting.