Does anyone feel numb as if a wet blanket over your brain? Or is this what depression feels like? I have never felt like this before in my life until reactivated EBV...it's spring..wanna clean, walk my dog, play with grandbabies, cook out on grill for my family, help my aging parents, get my hair done (scared of chemicals in color), put on makeup, enjoy a movie...this all seems so far out of reach..I have been going to my oldest daughter's often to be with her and grandbabies (we always were together a lot before I sick also) but the past few days I can tell im wearing on my daughter..I know me being sick has been so difficult on my entire family but now i need to leave my daughter alone for awhile as even my granddaughters are getting frustrated cause I can't play like they were used to (they all have been so sweet and supportive but no one expected I would be ill this long and things are changing now).. I've been crying all day uncontrollably..this has amplified my symtoms 10 fold and I'm angry with myself for doing this! Anyway, my days will now consist of being home and basically sitting and staring at all that needs done here...is it time to try an antidepressant?Does anyone have same experience? And anyone try antidepressant? This doesn't necessarily feel like depression but maybe it is? I wish i could come on here and be more positive! I've stayed off for a couple days as i knew I would be a downer like now..im thinking of you all and hoping you all are making improvements! Wishing you well..lecasco
Hi Lecasco,
I had many days of feeling down, I was never depressed before. It did pass but if I get a virus I can feel it again.
How long have you been sick?
I have never been on an antidepressant, but there are others on here who have gone on medication, hopefully someone can respond with their experience.I hope you feel better soon.
Thank you for response mono too..I've been ill since October but diagnosed with mono in december (I had mono when i was a teenager but i think i was only out of school for 2 weeks and just tired for awhile after that)...I may have to try some medication to see if it may help at all cause I'm in a dark place right now (I have Always been the one in my family that is there for everyone when they need help of any kind and now incapable of helping myself is a mind screwing ride I would love to get off of immediately 😢! I wonder if maybe a drug like adderal has ever been used to help combat mono (or ebv) fatigue? Just rambling again...I hope you are feeling better! It means so much to me that you responded..take care ☺
Hi lecasco really sorry to hear you arent feeling great i also have never suffered with anxiety or anything up untill this virus the doc gave me some anti depressant/anxiety tablets (small dosage) but i think they have helped me a little as once i calmed to down abit my symptoms seem to ease i dont plan on taking them forever but if they help for now why not?? Wishing you all the best
Hi Lecasco,
i had days and days like this when I couldn't stop crying for no reason, last year I also longed to do all those things you want to do, walk the dog, clean, etc and this year I'm doing all those things, the crying has pretty much gone, I never took anti depressants during this illness or before this, I've never suffered with it before, I didn't really understand why I was crying like this. But I have improved immensely....its been 1yr 3 months for me. And I'm pretty much normal except I just need to fill in that last 10%of my life so I'm back to normal as I still get tired and have to be careful.
it will happen, just slow!
Caroline x
Hi Lesaco,
Oh goodness you are going through such pain, I do know the feeling Lesaco have actually been like that myself lately due to my own circumstances. It's just the combination of everything that hits you and just becomes overwhelming, I totally understand. Not only having to deal with the awful symptoms on a daily basis, but as you say looking around you and seeing the things you want to do and enjoy doing and not being able to do them causes so much heartbreak, and also remembering how your life was before is so difficult - I've been going through that too lately and it's almost like a grieving for the way things have been before.
Lesaco, just want you to know I'm thinking about you and understand and it's totally understandable for you to feel this way. It's not your fault at all, carrying a burden like you have been is so much to bear, remember to be kind to yourself and understanding to yourself and don't beat yourself up - because you have been going through a tough time.
Having said what I said before about missing your old way of life, just remember there IS hope and there IS recovery from this thing Lesaco. It's very frightening and harrowing to go through these months of uncertainty and mentally coping with why and how and when and if you are going to feel better - but let me reassure you that YOU WILL GET BETTER. In NO WAY do these symptoms last forever, they may last some months yes which I know it's heartbreaking in itself, but then is it the NORM to go on and make a full recovery. It doesn't matter what age you are when you get it, your body has amazing powers of recovery and will fight this thing off given time.
I went through very similar emotions to you, it brought me so down too. I have been on anti-depressants for many years, they really can help Lesaco. I have been on Escitolopram (Cipralex) for most of my adult life, and they have helped me and kept me on an even keel. More recently I have also been on amitrypyline, which is very good for pain and getting a restful sleep at night. It's definitely worth considering and talking to the doctor about, and of course there is nothing to be feel bad about - I have lived a healthy and happy life most of the time on these tablets and sometimes it's a chemical imbalance which can be corrected and allow you to live more normally and feel more normal.
There is NOTHING to be sorry about in terms of not coming on feeling positive or anything - you have been through so much and it's totally understandable you're so tired and weary.
Reading or listening to some healing and encouraging Bible verses has also been a great comfort to me, especially at my lowest moments. A good decree to speak over yourself every day is 'Lord, I am healed in the name of Jesus of Nazareth! I than You that You sent Jesus to take my sins and sickness away on the cross. Lord, I am saved by the stripes of Jesus, I am healed. I will prosper and be in perfect health today even as my soul prospers.'
Even if you don't feel like it just saying that once a day even has amazing effects, it is true even when we can't see it that our healing is paid for. Also listening to some healing soothing verses too can be great, there's loads of short and longer videos on You Tube that I've found very helpful and relaxing in my hardest moments.
Thinking about you and remember YOU ARE going to get through this - 100% I believe you are. Sometimes when you feel so low it helps to have someone else believe it for you, so rest assured that I totally believe it for you even if it's hard to feel or see that yourself right now.
Take care and hang in there - remember it's okay to rest and accept that today things might not be perfect, but that this is a storm that will pass and things will get back to normal again with time.
Craig
How is your daughter?
Hi Brent,
Still struggling, she has been feeling ill this week, she just doesn't have the energy she should and feels tired and achy.
I have been feeling better for about six months, that depressed and foggy feeling for me lasted from October 2016 to about September 2017, it was a long ride.
Hi Caroline,
So glad to hear you are better, I feel the same about 90 percent there,
I can relate. I have struggled for a long time also. Most people don’t understand. It can wear on you. I tried antidepressants but they made me crazy. I guess they work for some people. Faith that we will get better is all we have.
I am going through the same thing. I know her and I are both still working and going through this. Hopefully things will change for us.
Still thinking of you guys Mono, Caroline, Lesaco, Brent and Poppy - a turning point (breakthrough) is coming for all of you i really do believe that. Thinking of you.
Craig
Hi Brent,
I think you two are about the same time frame for illness also. I hope it changes soon for both of you, she seems to be catching every virus that comes along which doesn't make it any easier.
Hi mono,
yes, 90% or so...... It's just this last little bit to go now. I'm normal enough, just get slightly breathless sometimes and a bit tired. I'm not doing any rigorous excercise yet don't want to push it!
i can even have an occasional beer or wine now, just daren't have any more!
Its just incredible how this virus effects us. Lovely to hear from you too, xx
Thanks Craig, you're awesome x
You're awesome too Caroline! Big hugs!! xx
God bless you Craig! I thank you so much for the encouragement and your Faith! I pray for your healing also! It's so incredible that through your own pain you continue to support so many! You're wonderful! Wishing you well! Lecasco
Thank you so much for your reply! Means alot! I am so happy to hear you're almost there! And I hope that last 10% fills in fast for you. So encouraging to hear theres a possible end in sight to this evil virus! ☺..All I can do is keep taking it one day at time..thanks again..lecasco
Thanks so much Poppy! Really messing with me right now but im hoping let's up soon! Hope you're mouth problems doing better! I think i miss some updates cause I'm always using my phone..take care and best wishes! Lecasco