Hello, sorry if this is a boring read, but I'm really hoping someone can give me a bit of help if possible. To try to sum things up without writing a novel: I'm a full-time carer to my mum (have been for nearly 15 years) and she has severe bipolar disorder. She's been sectioned more times than I can count, but she hasn't seen the inside of a hospital for the last 6 years - touch wood. Her illness is exacerbated by missing sleep, and she finds sleeping more difficult in the summer months when the days are long. She's on depakote and olanzapine, but these aren't enough to guarantee sleep when she's at the onset of an episode.
She has a problematic relationship with doctors in general and she hasn't been to see her psychiatrist in almost 2 years. Physically, she's quite elderly and doesn't get about a lot, but when she's high she has a tendency to over reach herself and go wandering about at night and things like that. I've tried to take every precaution (locks, buzzers etc.) but the only fail-safe option is for me to nap in a chair and keep an ear out if I'm worried she may not be sleeping.
Before she stopped seeing her psychiatrist, she asked for some sleeping pills and she was prescribed a very meagre 7 tablets of 7.5mg zopiclone a month. These worked quite well in emergencies, but tended to give her nasty side effects, and then there was an awful occasion when unknown to me she'd managed to stock up 2 pills and she took them one night, then got up and went wandering outside and broke her ankle. So we stopped getting the monthly prescription for zopiclone.
Now the summer's here again and she's very high and we're having another wretched time of it. I tried ordering her monthly prescription for the zopiclone, but because it's been so long since she last agreed to see her psychiatrist, it was refused. Getting any help or sleeping pills out of a gp these days seems like a losing battle.
So what I'm asking, please, is whether anyone can direct me to a reliable online source for purchasing just a few strips of either zolpidem or zopiclone. I've managed to order successfully in the past from some sellers, but since topix shut down, I've only been throwing money away on scam artists, mostly based in Pakistan. A year ago I bought a couple of strips of zolpidem 5mg (I think its official brand name is Ambien?), which seemed to work incredibly well, and I would be forever indebted to anyone who can just point to even one site that won't simply take my money and leave me in the lurch. I don't have the cash to waste, I'm afraid. I know that buying online is not an ideal situation, but when my mum is ill, it is virtually impossible to coax her to visit a doctor or have anything to do with them at all, and getting a doctor to visit us is very difficult (she has been involved in altercations in the past).
I'm not looking to buy a crazy bulk number or anything, just a few strips to have to ration out carefully when needed, and tide us over during the worst times when a good night's sleep is just utterly priceless.
If anyone could help I would be incredibly grateful. Really, it would help more than I can say. Thank you.