Hey guys,
In my last post, I expressed that I'm agoraphobic... and that I will be moving May 15th, aka forcing me to leave the house, and go for a lengthy car ride. My anxiety had gotten to the point where I could not even shower without panicking and could not be in the same room with anyone.
With the help of St. John's Wort drops, my mood had become more stable, and I'd tackled showering, and grabbing my food for dinner. I was able to be in the same room for longer than usual, able to conversate, and such.
Since moving day is coming, my mom has been pressuring me to try a different anti-anxiety medication (I've tried Lexapro, Zoloft, Paxil, and now Prozac). I do have a low dosage of Xanax, but I can only take a half IN INCREMENTS, because the muscle relaxant freaks me out. I don't like not being able to tense when I need to, as part of dealing my anxiety attacks ARE TO MAKE MY HEART RACE, because when I panic, my arms go numb, and I feel like my heart has stopped, and like I'm going to pass out. With muscle relaxants, I can't do these things, and it actually feels like... I'm gonna die? So, like I said, with Xanax, I have to be very careful with how I take it.
That being said, I called my doctor for a new anti-anxiety medication and he put me on prozac 10mg. I took it this morning and it was HORRIBLE. The effect was immediate. I could not... even take a full breath. My skin broke in hives... I was having an allergic reaction. I immediately had to take benedryl. This set me back, because of course... I felt like this for HOURS... like, I couldn't move, like I couldn't feel my arms, panicking. Even hours after sleep, I feel very anxious and fidgety and it was a big step back.
My parents came home from the local vape shop with a CBD oil. They want me to take two small drops under my tongue. After this morning, I... srsly, srsly am scared to even try anything right now. I'd finally gotten okay with the shower, with being downstairs... tonight, I was going to shower and I don't want to lol I'm back to fearing the shower, because my body feels too light, sluggish, tired right now.
For those of you who have tried CBD... are these drops comparable to Xanax? What will it do to my body? Will I feel weak? Does it work as a muscle relaxant like Xanax does? I really do not like unfamiliar sensations.
Is this like a glass or two of wine or is this like taking a full xanax?