Been a long time anxiety sufferer but was soo much better the past 3.5 years or so. Recently at the start of this year I started to notice some strange feelings/newer symptoms and I have not been able to shake them.
Was on 20mg for first 1.5 year then GP told me to go to 40mg just cause so I did....was on that for the past year or while also taking small doses of Tramadol for a hernated disc....to be honest I had no anxiety, felt a panic come on and I would immediately brush it off.
In the fall of last year and early this year weaned myself off Tramadol completely . Reduced Citalopram dose from 40mg to 20mg...then a couple months later took a very expensive taxi ride to the ER.
Have had hundreds of EKGS, blood work, testing, etc....no CATScan though on the brain.
I went back up to 40 mg for a couple of months and started to fill confused at times and that really would through me off. Would have a hard time processing thoughts, words, etc at times I would also get really anxious.
Now I have full blown panic again to where each day is a struggle THIS SUCKS!! Had this for many years back in the day. Now I am taking 40 mgs again but worried that I will have something catastophic happen to me if I go back to 40 mg. This will be day 4 of taking 40 mg a day.....not sure why I am even on that high of a dose I am 6ft and 185lbs.
Your thoughts, advice and words are greatly appreciated!
Hi Shawn, take it a day at a time don't worry about catastrophe if you do will make it worse in your head try to settle on 40 mg if that's what doctor has advised and then think about lowering dose later it's so difficult. I know saying it and doing it two different things! But I found the more you think about the dosage the more you worry about it instead of just concentrating on getting better or at least feeling a bit calm and rested and at peace with your thought n mind try not think about dose does that make sense? I been on citalooram for three years now and when I tried to come off got really bad so I'm stopping on it now would rather take it than suffer with depression n pain in head. It's the strongest of person to admit this and get through we are strong people inc yourself we misdirect our strengths to destroy ourselves and punish ourselves through what's happened to us in our lives instead of using it to make ourselves happy and content bit deep there sorry please keep strong it takes many years of struggle and determination to get to where you are happy and content xx keep strong if you want to talk I here x
Thank you for taking the time to reply. I have to admit I have been a mess lately, really focusing on the anxiety....what I know to be true is that the 40 mg know causes me to feel confused such a bizarre and scary symptom. The 20 mg works so/so....either way you hit the nail on the head I have been extremely hypersensitive and really worried about the dosage level and life in general that no matter what I would feel ill. I go and see a Pyschriast 1st time ever next Friday...in 12 years this will be my first time seeing one.
Apparently according to reliable sources Psychiatrists don't bite, so tell him/her everything about how you feel and he/she will give you the best advice possible.We, here, can only tell you our experiences but otherwise offer unqualified advice. You are very lucky to be seeing a professional expert and cannot do anything but benefit from the experience. Enjoy the experience, they are there to help.