Hi Vivien - to take your first point - YES I can sleep on diazepam. I truly didn't think I'd be able to but I was wrong.
Second point abdout the Ashton Method - I don't know how all the individiual clinics wean people off drugs, but the method used in my clinic is very similar to the Ashton Method. The slight difference is that my doctor at the clinic doesn't push me to take less every time I go (which is once a fortnight) He makes his suggestion, I think about it and together we come up with a plan which suits me. I am tapering off very slowly, because I was taking so much zopiclone, plus zolpidem and diazepam when I first turned to the clinic for help, that the doctor said to start on 30 mg diazepam every night, and we'd decide about when to go down to 28mg per night when I felt ready. He has also been in close conta t with my GP, which is very useful, because if I go to my GP for some other reason they ask how the tapering off is going, and are very encouraging. Did I tell you I stopped smoking two weeks ago? I'm really proud of that, especially as I have bad asthma and obviously smoking was making it much worse.
I feel now that all the doctors involved in my care now respect me. Prior to that, there was a clear attitude of "You got ourslef into this mess - get yourself out of it"
The reality is a little different. I was first prescribed diazepam at the age of ten because I developed School Phobia. That soon went away, luckily, but can you imagine a ten year old child being prescribed diazepam????
Then, when I was sixteen, my daad died suddenly. At the hospital, my mum and I were both given 5 mg diazepam as a matter of course, and also that evening a friend of the family, who was a GP, popped round with a massive bottle of nitrazepam (mogadon) and told us all to help ourselves!!!
Finally, when I was a student nurse, on my first stint of night duty, another nurse recommended taking diazepam out of the drug trolley to help me to sleep during the day. (Drugs were not counted at each shift change as they are nowadays.)
I had a brief first marriage, to an extremely violent man. I headed for the drug cupboard at work to blot this out, of course. Many years later, the internet arrived and then there was no stopping me.
Just after last Christmas I sought help AT LAST. It was the best thing I could ever have done. I feel more clear-headed and have a sense of pride in myself. I would never have believed that this was possible.
You must write and let me know how you got on at your clinic/ Please stay in touch. Lots of love, Tess.