About a month ago I took a cannibis pill and had a very bad trip. Ended up having atleast 3-4 panic attacks, hullicinations and suicidal thoughts. The next day I felt a little groggy but by the end of the day I was back to normal.
Fast forward two weeks I was sitting on my couch watching tv and BAM pure panic entered my body and I was in a full blown panic attack. I believe this panic attack has caused me to have depersonalization. Im here and I can have a conversation but my brain just feels off and weird, its hard to explain but it feels like a total out of body experience. Its been a little over 2 weeks of these feelings, along with more panic attack and suicidal thoughts which sent me to the ER. I also sometimes feel quite dizzy during these episodes. Some days are better than others. Its a completely overwhelming feeling when all you want is to feel like yourself again.
I have two children under 3, and I’m starting to feel like I’m failing them as a mom. I’m irritable, so beyond tired, feel completely out of it and truly just want ME back.
I just recently saw my family doctor this past weekend and he prescribed me 10mg of Citalopram. I’m absolutely terrified to take it as I’ve read the side affects and I worry that it will worsen what I’m already going through.
Has anyone here thats delt with depersonalization taken Citalopram? Did it worsen for you after taking the medication? I just feel so lost 