It honestly feels like I am in a non-stop cycle of anxiety, ranging from health, war, religion, and the big d word.. death! My anxiety was much easier and more so manageable last year when life was simple, but this year it's been so bad for my anxiety, especially with the recent covid-19 pandemic as I have weak lungs. I feel like I'm never able to catch a break, every ache, pain and abnormal thought drives me insane with the thoughts of a fatal illness, death, and overall being afraid for my future. I'm unable to do anything (ie watch movies, play games, spend time with family) without feeling like it'll be the last time i do that. I'm scared I have a sort of sixth sense?? apparently that's a thing and I hate it, I miss being able to sleep without fear, I miss not worrying. I'm 14, I feel like i should have my whole life ahead of me yet I'm scared I won't.. The pandemic makes it so I cannot see my psychologist, I keep forgetting to take my medications and my mother is forced to work during the pandemic so I'm unable to do the things with her that usually soothe my anxiety.. I also watched a movie where some guy just randomly died suddenly and I'm scared that it'll happen to me?? (can that even happen? I'm honestly too nervous and scared to look anything up since I know my health anxiety will take full force) I hate this and I havent found anyone who has the same fears as me (scared to sleep, constant anxiety cycles) hopefully i eventually find someone with these similar fears..
you aren’t alone,I never in my wildest dreams believed a pandemic would happen. I was doing okay,but the constant news etc has spiked my anxiety,upset stomach,fear,sadness. Please just know you aren’t alone, I think everyone is worried,but the worry is worse for people with anxiety.
Let me make it clear to you, I am 25 years old, I have a good health and I’m strong that I run around easily, January 24 I got so ill and it was an illness that wasn’t diagnosed as doctors said I am fine with all test. I was so down that I felt I would die, at that point my anxiety kicked up and I always have the thought that I would leave the world one sudden day! I was scared because I never wanted to be a source of pain to my mom. But I was in severe pain that I cant do anything. Now I am recovering, but I still can’t understand what is going on in me.. I run away from my friends, I don’t pick calls, I am scared to go out because I don’t know what will happen next. Guess what, I have gotten life through the word of God, I don’t know if you are religious but you may read the book of 2Peter 2vs 24, I have found comfort in Christ Jesus and the word as well.. It will work for you if you believe.
What I want you to also know is that you are not alone!!
im 20 , im young as well; ive been foreshadowing my own death for two years now and i dont know why. corona felt like comfirmation to that idea; for the past two months ive felt like i cant breathe, i feel dizzy , i have pains in my back, ive been tested though, and guess what … nothing came back , it fucking sucks its the worst thing i feel like im too young to die as well and that i know for certain im going to die… but you wont, your in gods hands , go out and run and exercise show yourself that your strong , your better than you know