Hey all,
I took my first Citalopram 10mg last night and felt the need to share this. I hit rock bottom this past weekend. I am a uni student and it was like I did not even realize how close I was to completely failing my course due to my depression. When I went in to see my GP I had broken down completely before I even talked to her and when she suggested an antidepressant I did not even hesitate. I have been depressed since my teens (am now 24) and never got proper help as I always downplayed because I felt ashamed. This weekend I realized I should not be. I am also seeing a councellor as of next week so I have faith.
Don't feel to bad this morning due to the medication, didn't sleep to well, but that may be due to my dwelling and have a headache, but again may be due to the fact that I spent a good 2 hours crying last night. I am glad I found this site as I feel I'm going to need support and reading stories and experiences has already helped me, albeit freaked me out a little about the next few weeks. Here's to the road to recovery!
Hi, i just wanted you to know that there is light at at end of the tunnel, no matter how far away it seems at the moment, you will get there i am sure.
I am in my 8th week now on Cit, and i am feeling so much better than i did, the tablets do take some time to work and some of the side effects are not very nice but stick witth it love, they will work.
Try not to focus on the negative comments on here as there are also plenty of positive comments too. This site helped me enormously, and i hope that it will help you too. Try not to focus / dwell upon the side effects that you MAY experience, they can take you over if you let them, i suffered from bad anxiety attacks which were made greater from the medication but i found that when they came on bad, if i got up and did something, i.e run up and down the steps, do a crossword, anything that takes your mind off the attack albeit just a little, this does help. If you sit there continually thinking about how bad you feel, it will just take over. I also had counselling and this helped so much. Try and find a good friend or family member that you can talk to, as the more you talk about it, the more it helps. I know that there is a lot of stigma attached to mental health but honestly believe me when i say this, you will be surprised how many people have been there themselves, and the more you open up to people the more you will learn that you are not alone in this phase of your life. Also, speak with your tutor at uni. let them know what is going on in your life.
Try to keep strong love, and remember you are not alone.
I wish you well in your recovery. Julie x
Thank you for your reply, I actually talked to my uni tutor already because I have not been able to get an assesment done on time and today meeting someone else in the department. I was nervous about talking to them, but found them understanding and accomodating. It is good to know people care! I kind of forced myself to go out on a walk yesterday listening to my iPod so that I did not lie down in bed and just wallowed, it helped a little bit, still came back and laid down for an hour, but that is better than 2 or 3!
Stick with it - ride out the storm, take some time off if you have to (you can get signed off), you'll feel better soon. Let your tutor know.
I didnt let anyone know, and my work really suffered, stupidly I hid the fact that I had depression and was being treated (therapy as well) , and of course was dealing with the medication, I kind of suffered because of it, as my work went downhill.
But now it's all cool jets, my synapses are shooting all over the place, I am as happy as the proverbial pig, and its a new year and a new start, life is great, music is great, we live, we love, we breathe, we enjoy, who cares about anything else as long as we have health , friends and family.
You wait, it's like having the best tattoo you ever saw, you go through a little pain, which you CAN handle, and the end results are amazing.