I literally feel like all I do every day is sit here and wait for the day to be over.
If I'm lucky enough to get some sleep then I wake up so disappointed and sad that I have awoken to face another dull day full of horrible memories and depression, alone again.
And waiting for appointments, phonecalls, it's just all waiting. I am so sick of waiting!
It's not as simple as, "pick up a hobby!" when you're mind cannot keep focus for any amount of time past about 3 minutes.
Happy Saturday.
with regards to weekends, u knws u got no appointments, an u wont be gettin any phone calls, got a friend u can visit or invite to call over,
I'm not expecting any appointments or phonecalls today or tomorrow, I am speaking generally - over a period of 12 months
I know it's hard to to have a hobby when you feel no interest or joy in anything. I would suggest that perhaps you volunteer at one of your nearby soup kitchens, women's or animal shelters. Doing for others and giving back gives the greatest amount of self fulfillment and purpose and can literally lift the spirits. Just pick your favorite cause. Start with one day a week and if you look forward to going each time, do two. You have to start with small steps sometimes. Even getting a dog and taking it to the dog park could give you an opportunity to get out and meet new people. You don't have to have any particular talents to do those. Lack of sunshine and light can cause vitamin deficiencies and cause depression or make it worse and it can turn in to a vicious circle and downward spiral. Having no incentive for life any more can be a difficult thing but you have to start somewhere. Good luck!
I'll try this again. My first posting went in to moderation for some reason but I'll try to repeat what I said. My suggestion to you was volunteering, either at a local soup kitchen, women's or animal shelter. Giving back always gives one a sense of purpose. Or just getting a dog and taking it to the dog park daily or for a walk meeting new people can be fulfilling. Small steps are always the best. Good luck to you!
i feel the GP surgery's are like way understaffed and under recourced, got no choice to be patient, do u have other commitments, such as work or family that can hold u up for attending ur ap ointments ?
i fell for an old lady making me feel sorry for her due to her age, gave her loadsa free work( thinking it wud help ) only to feel like she kicked me in the teeth, wen i requested payments again, i'm thinking of a dog, as i have no commitments that wud hinder me having one, but like all of us, if were gonna decide to adopt a pet, needs carefull planning,
I'm sorry but I was making the suggestion to fee25. Sounds like what you did for the "old lady" was rotten if she was under the impression from the beginning that you were doing the work for free and out of the kindness of your heart and then tried to charge her for it afterwards? Who does that? What a creep thing to do! Please don't get a dog. Waaay too much responsibility for someone immature like you!
i started working for a fee, kindness of my heart, i dropped requesting payment, cos i didnt need it, an found it helped me mentally, she has a vast large of land, it was handy when i was living opposite her house, but now im ten miles away, its thrown sum spanners in the works lol,
what makes u think i'm immature ?
You are immature because of the way you abbreviate words like "cos" for cause, "wud" for would, etc. It seems childish to me like a teenager texting friends. No need to abbreviate here. The viewing screen is nice and wide and we're all adults....I think!
Hey Yvonne, I've just got my degree and moved to a new city so I'm job hunting - when something comes up that should help, it's waiting till then. I did have a dog back home, we had to put him down two weeks ago which absolutely killed me, he was genuinely the most beautiful, happy dog.
Before my depression I was so active and I constantly volunteered and worked, alongside my studies. I do want to be active again it's just finding the drive and motivation again.
i'm talking fly, ppl understand me
Good for you! Sounds like you have more drive than you think you do. Good luck and I'm sure you'll do well!
More than you know! LOL!
My GP surgery is great, I can see my Dr when I need to, she's understanding and gives all her patients all that she can. I know not all surgeries are like that, I'm very lucky to have mine. But, GPs can't fix the problems, they can be there as a port of call and they recognise the issues and refer you on. It's those referrals that take so much time, one meeting a month on for another months wait etc.
I don't have any issues with my national heath service.
In terms of the personal side I am currently just out of Uni and looking for work which, also seems to take it's time. I don't really like seeing friends due to my anxiety and my depression renders it difficult to be around people for any extended periods of time. My family are far away but, we are not particularly close anyway.
Thank you for your kind words Yvonne
That's the thing, I used to love who I was and what I was doing! I just need to try and find that person again!
i dont think anyone ever has become an adult, i think generation after generation has been winging it, growing up is a trap
thats coool u got a doctor you can relate too im awaiting more appoints refered from psychiatrist to somewhere, got a Dr.s appointment early september, i guess i may have a diagnosis, or be adviced how to further steps forward,
one thing i knws, is that i would hate to be young, an be living in this system, trying to work it out, i guess my age is a valuable assett to me,
I feel the same everyday. I love sleeping and when I wake up I say to myself what is the point. Think what is making me feel like this is I have no money and when I do work hard I still have no money so I think to myself what is the point in doing anything as most things I want to do costs money it's just a joke.
I think you're right about the generation thing. I was married and a mother at 21, bought my first house at 24, built a new one at 28 and worked hard for aliving with no college education. Different generation I guess and all with severe anxiety disorder. It's called pulling yourself up by your boot straps, getting the lead out and taking care of business instead of laying around whining about how bad you have it. That's enough to make anyone want to end it. I just lost my only son last November to a ridiculous accident and I've got to carry on like it or not. Life deals you a bad hand but it's the cards you have to play sometimes and that's what I call being an adult. Otherwise, you sit back and whine like a child who doesn't get his way. Only you can decide which one you are.