I hate myself. I have been abused for so many years. My mom refused to live me. My granny took me I at 15 after my mom's boyfriend's molested me and I was only able to put one in jail. I have struggled with death for many years now. I have tried shop many things to die. I ran away from home at 15 for 1 month. My family turned there back on me, I was kicked out of my grannies only to go back to my abusive alcoholic mother.knowing she let all those men hurt me and she abused me. I was a lonely child trying to find love where I could too never really never find it. I have cut myself taken pills nothing has worked. I am a mother of two now. I helped Defacs and took in my nieces and was out under a microscope. I refused to make a choice and they were taken, my kids learned what they could do and lied to be with there dad after 11 years of me trading care of them alone. Why he had a pool and looked down on me for the moment. Only to dibs out my kids lied and hurt each other and blanmed it on me..4 mouths late and the truth cubes out, I tried to go to college inky to have to out my kids first. Them have this issue take my taxes because nobody would talk to me. I took 25 pills Monday and still wow up again. I don'tt want to live anymore. I hate any marriage because of the I will try. Nothing changes. My kids hate me. For 3 days I was going through the pills I took nobody called, stopped by nothing.my job no matter how amazing I am it's never good enough just like the rest of my life. Hate is carved on my arm to remind me of life. This goes deeper but life never lets loose.
jesus and i thought i had problems,firstly nothing that has happend in your life is your fault,you couldent help having a s**t mother who met s**t partners that thought they could touch you because your mam was a s**t mother.but what you do from this day forth is your doing,you need help,proper help from some one that will listen and help you,you have no control for other peoples actions so if your kids decided to lie then thats there doing not yours,if your marrige is s**t then you either get help with that or you put it behind you and get rid of him,you need to start being strong and deffo stop thinking killing yourself is the way out as its not.start getting your body and brain strong,go to the gym then maybe you will start taking back your life,im not saying every thing is easy as its not and you know its not but things do get better when you take control and stop being the victim,please keep me imformed on your life and feel free to message any time
Elizabeth
You are going through a bad time
Contact NHS INFORMATION LINE ON TEL 111, explain to them how you feel, you need help
BOB
Hi elizabeth36797, It is very difficult what happened to you, I only tell you not to lose faith, life is one, try to seek help to obtain peace, God bless you!