The hospital rang this morning and whoopee doo they have a bed. They want me there at three o'clock. I took down the details, but I am still undecided about going, and I'm supposed to be there in two and a half hours!!! I am no more enthused about this than the last time I wrote a few days ago. My days of being willing to crawl a mile over broken glass to get some meaningful help are long gone and I think that what happened last week (apart from being mentally exhausted with all this crap) is that hope died. It was the last straw. The final p*ss take.
I'm going to go to have a bath now to mull it over.
Thank you all for your good wishes. I feel bad being like this when there are people that desperately want this and would jump at the chance. I was one of those people too at one time. I fought and I fought and I fought, but they don't play fair.
i can imagine what your going through,\"shall i shant i\" only you can decide on that one as its your body, and dont worry over people who would do anything to get it done , when it finally arrives you bound to have doubts, anybody would. whatever you decide im sure i speak for all on the site we,ll be with you whatever, think positive think of the future . good luck with what you decide and best wishes from us all, we,ll be thinking of you. gail
you've not been on so i'm hopeing you went for you op!! :mrgreen: yehhhh!!! good choice :ok: so as i write this your probs starveing and getting nervous, i was thinking this morning if i hadn't postponed mine i'd be up kings today for my pre-op!!! but i have a cold/flu and really poorly, so i couldn't have come to see you anyway :cry: i'm on lemsip extra so i'm having a burst of energy!!! lol,
let us know how you got on when your feeling up to it, or just come on and type......ughhhh......... lol then we know you ok, lol,