So about 8 months ago I felt great, and then out of nowhere I felt really strange. When I looked in the mirror it did not feel like me, and all the other symptoms of personalization. It wasn't too bad, I could still function and perform well in school. It got better to the point where I still felt I had it but not too much. However I just woke up and I feel absolutely terrible. Nothing feels real to me and I do not feel like myself at all. I actually woke to some sort of weird attack where I couldn't think at all, and it's hard to describe it because I can't remember it too much which brings on my main concern. I am having difficulty remembering things, even though my memory is normally very sharp. I can barely remember how I felt through depersonalization months ago, and if I was asked what I had for breakfast yesterday I would have to think really hard. I am very worried as I have had anxiety/dos before but not to this caliber. Also, as a side note I arrived in the uk yesterday from the is so I had a long period of no sleep.
I am having all sorts of cognitive problems since monthes. I am not sure the anxiety is the only player here but it was the trigger and it has a definite considerable role. I have gone through different stages throghout these months which I can summarize for you as:
Panic Attack->totally convinced that I am having serious condtion other than anxiety->I totally get convince that it is just anxiety>repeat
well after first few monthes I started to grow out of the denial and depair and tried to fight it back.In my experience absolute distraction from irritating thoughts about anxiety and the time factors had the greatest healing effects I suggest you to the same.
As a side note on the explicit memory issue that you have mentioned: Your brain instead of recording the events at the moment with details, is acutally occupied with the often self-analyses and In extreme cases such as the case that I have been through, continiuosly. This is badly effecting your eventual memory, I believe.
What is your memory loss like because I can now remember much better than an hour or so ago just can't remember feelings. Honestly though right now I don't really feel many feelings anyway.
Feelings associated with the scene or the event? If that is what you mean yes surely it has been affected. It seems that the past events are not as clear to me as it used to be, related feelings the overall visuals are less elaborated to me.Also the sense of the amount of time in between two past events is much more coarser for me and I find it quite natural as the memory weakens the in between events are less recorded thus leading to coarser memory.
I know what you mean, but am new to the feeling. Right now I'm so done with all these anxiety related problem. I would do anything to feel normal again.
Same I would do anything quite frustrating I know ,I feel ya! don't give the negative thought more room to grow I don't know what specifically will help you we have our differences maybe you might need help of a professional with that if you haven't already. Anyhow maybe your situation is much less grimmer than mine, I have this problem as a result of relentless recreational drug experiences(weed).
Ah I heard that's a common cause. Mine just kinda came on out of nowhere, and was perfectly manageable but it got like 10x worse today for some reason. Yours sounds a bit more serious then mine I'm just a worried ball of stress I guess. How old are you may I ask? I'm 15 so hormonal stuff might have had something to do with it.
Oh yea chill out you are young^^. I am 27 sorry for me English as I am not native.
Your English is perfect don't worry about it. Yeah being young and having anxiety kind of sucks because I have school and all.