I've had depersonalization for 12 years 24/7, no break what so ever and it has ruined my quality of life, why won't it go away! Every day I hope this will be the day it will go! I was neglected as a child, put into care at the age of 7 and was abused by my foster father, even living with these foster parents it was like walking around on egg shells and me and my sister were kept like slaves, I did not leave until I was 18 then they got me a flat about a minute walk away so continually seen them up until late the age of 30. That's when me and my sister (who was also abused by him) went to the police and went to court, he got 13 years in prison. I didn't tell anyone about my abuse until the age of 30, so have kept all this locked in the back of my head since I was 7 years old. I kept my depersonalisation to myself until a few months ago, I got to see a psychiatrist who said I need to see a childhood trauma therapist because all this trauma is locked away in my head and this is what is causing me to depersonalised. But I don't believe this trauma can cause me to depersonalised for 12 years and why did it happen when I was 24? I've always had anxiety all my life but got really bad at the age of 24 because I started to abuse alcohol which caused panic attacks when sober, (I quit drinking at the age of 28, I'm now 36) I believe I got depersonalisation because I got obsessed over my heart, it started to skip beats and I worried myself to death thinking I was dying of a heart problem, I was so in tune with listening to what was going on inside my body and not focusing on the real world. I'm OK with my heart now it hasn't freaked me out for years, I've had all tests done and everything is fine. Anyways I still get freaked out by my depersonalisation, you think I would be used to it by now lol! It's robbed 12 years of my life, it was there for the birth of my child, the death of my mother and my wedding day....it just won't bugger off. Rant over thanks for reading 😯
Pamela
Could it have been you had your first relationship around about twenty four years old, this brought out bad memories ? Also your Anxiety Health concerns. If this is the case the pathway offered may be your best way forward and put your memories from that early time to rest
BOB
Hi bob no I was 18 when I had my first real relationship where now married. ☺