A little more than 2 weeks ago I had what I believe to have been a panic or anxiety attack. I havery low self esteem as is and I had been more down on myself than usual due to recent weight gain. During the initial attack I started thinking about how everything about me is wrong and how I'll never amount to anything. Then my heart started racing and I got dizzy and I couldn't breathe right. I ended up relaxing for a moment only to start up again til I finally fell asleep. Ever since then I feel it has gotten worse and I can't enjoy anything. I have even thought about suicide. I have NEVER felt this way before. Please help!
Oh honey, breathe! I know that's easier said than done, right?! I have been there. I had never had an anxiety attack (or ever had any kind of anxiety), but I was going through a rather stressful time in my life. I had just adopted a child as a single woman, was finishing up a graduate degree, and working full time. I started having some health anxiety, but I kept ignoring it. Fast forward a few weeks, I'm at the mall, and I start freaking out. I can't move, I grab my friend's arm and tell her something is wrong. I thought I was dying..it was so bad! My heart was racing, I had no idea how I was going to get out of that mall. Scariest thing ever. Logically, I knew I had had a panic attack, but that started a series of scary events where I felt like I was constantly on the verge of another attack. I couldn't go out to eat with my friends, couldn't take my daughter out, couldn't even go to work sometimes. Anxiety led to depression, which led to me feeling like nothing was ever going to change. I couldn't enjoy anything, and I felt like a terrible mom. I could barely function. I think I probably would have gotten better on my own, but I decided to go to the doctor. I got on anti anxiety medicine which did not work right away, but after 2 weeks, I began coming out of the fog. Each day began to get better and now it's like it never happened. I understand where you are coming from. I've been there and I promise it will get better. Don't be embarassed to ask for help from friends, family, or evn a doctor if you decide to go that route. I can assure you one thing: It won't always be like this. Lift your head up
it sounds like it was a panic attack rather than a heart attack so try not to worry, keep exercising and try and lose the weight that you put on.
Thank you for all of your kind words. Every time I think about every aspect of my life I can only think of the bad things. I honestly think I'm just having a nervous breakdown but idk how to get better. I still can't really eat or sleep much
I used to google nervous breakdown and every aspect sounded like myself. I promise that you are not alone in this. If you decide to go to the doctor, I always say that zoloft saved my life (and my sanity). Exercise is also really important, because it releases endorphins that will ward off anxiety and depression. As hard as it is, keep moving forward. Something that helped me was thinking of the phrase, "fake it till you make it." That's what I did I slapped a smile on my face, went to work, and then came home and collapsed into my bed because I was so exhausted. Maybe try taking some tylenol pm before bed. I didn't sleep at all when I went through it, and eventually the lack of sleep will only add to how crazy you feel! I know yu don't know how to get better, but no one really does...it just gets better eventually! Try to keep busy, eat!, exercise when you can, and try to get some sleep!
And remember that there are always people willing to help! Don't be afraid to reach out Knowing that other people have gone through this will help you
Oh I have reached out to EVERYONE I know because I have never been more scared in my life. I almost committed myself twice 
I just want to be comfortable again
How are you feeling today? I'm glad you are reaching out...isolating yourself is the worst thing you can do. Do you have anything to keep you busy during the day? Down time was always a trigger for me...I would feel like I couldn't get out of my own skin and I would pace because I felt trapped by my anxiety. I know it's hard right now. Do you have someone that can take you to the doctor? Even getting a prescription for xanax or something like that would be really helpful. That way you don't have to take something every day, but if you feel a panic attack coming on, you can pop one and calm down. Sometimes just knowing that you have them just in case is really helpful. I would suggest going to the doctor...psychatrists tend to be really hard to get into, but if you go to your general practioner, they should be able to help. I went to therapy for awhile and that was so helpful. My therapist assured me that I wasn't crazy and was a nice voice of reason. I used to look forward to our meetings. She was so calming. I hope you are feeling better today!
I feel a teensy bit better each day and I am going to work and school as normal now and it makes me feel better but I still can't stop thinking about becoming suicidal and it scares me. Idk if it's anxiety or what but thowe thoughts do make me anxious and my chest hurts