Hi Caroline, I read your story and i feel so bad. But this is the time to get out of rid from this. Depression can be treated-the sooner the better! Ask a responsible counselor to help you connect with a mental health professional. Without proper support from a professional. Having supportive friends and family can also help you feel better.
Hi Caroline. Have you told your hubby you need help too? Does he know how depressed and bad you are feeling? Say I know your ex needs it too but if it is a question of choice he has to choose you and put you first, not her.
But I will reiterate what I said previously. If you were in this woman's shoes wouldn't you seek help and somewhere to live from the only person who would put up with you? Do you reckon she wants to be there any more than you want her to? Don't you think the situation at your home is distressing for her as well?
I am not saying this to make you feel sorry for her but just to say again it is your husband you should feel angry at for putting you in this intolerable situation. It is him who has done this and he is still putting her needs over yours.
Blame the organ grinder not the monkey! xx