Hi for almost 4 years now I have been ill with what doctors say is depression but I am not sure I think its more . My ex partner of 20years finish with me I also lost my home, my job ,and a lot of friends . it has stop me living because now everything is look at i see the past and the past all what I lost which was my world is on my mind 24/7 I am now struggling to get by each day I can not cope I still want to live but can't live without my past I feel alone scared frighten that I won't be able to go on I am a man in is 50s but feel like a little boy I have been living back at my parents which is hard for all of us I have a chance to go stay with best mate if I can beat some of this illness. Which doctors say is depression? Do any one relate to my problem.
Hi Nige. Yes I can relate to having depression that steals your happiness and your ability to function well in the world. As I read your email one thing kept running through my mind. Has a psychiatrist or counselor ever mentioned you possibly being bipolar? Have you had therapy. I have and it changed my life but it is not a fast fix it takes time. And now while you are living with your parents might be a good time to try it. What do you think it? Diane
Hi Diane thanks for your reply no one told me it might be biplar it's funny cos someone I know got biplar but they don't think or live in the past like me I just can't move on because I just can't not cope . Thanks again nige
Hi Diane me again did you ever think all the time about your past even looking at things .regards nige
Yes I feel exactly as you
You are not alone
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Yes I have spent a lot of time thinking about mistakes that I think that I have made in my past but with counseling and meds I am much better and stay busy thinking about today and some about the future. Diane
Yes I too think about all my past mistakes so many I think we do all do that perhaps we are more honest than others
So hard to put past behind
I am 69 and wish I could move on
Do feel afraid most days
1.42 am and again can’t sleep
Hi carol thanks for your reply the trouble with me is I can't live without my past I feel so lonely hate each day I want to still live but can't cope with the life i have now it's a nightmare 24/7 my ex partner and life is on my mind I have one best mate that I have a chance to go and stay with but I am scared too because I know that I will be thinking of the past and won't go out just stay in which is not right on him but I have been staying with my parents and it's hard now to stay here .
Hi carol also 4 years is a very long time to still miss my past experience partner and the life I had and not be able to move on must be more than depression wrong with me but doctors say it is depression . Nige