I have struggled with anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember.I think it really started when my father had a heart attack 3 years ago. At that time I had also lost my job and my relationship had broken down too so I was dealing with 3 extremely upsetting situations all at once.
I managed to find another job 4 months later doing something I
Are you on medication or considered therapy?
Hi Lynne,
Yes I am on Citalopram and have my first assessment for Counselling this afternoon which I am hoping will help. I accidentally pressed return before I could finish what I was writing before.
The job I started 4 months later I loved to start with and stayed at for nearly 3 years.It was however very stressful, as well as looking after animals which had to be PTS regularly I had many issues with one member of staff (lending money and not getting it back, money being stolen, bullying me). It took its toll and what was once a job that I loved it became heartbreaking and mentally challenging.
In this time I also had a miscarriage which alone was a hurdle to jump and something that I am still trying to forget 2 years on. I associate everything in life with pain, loss and upset now and no matter how hard I try and pick myself up I can't forget the memories I have....I can't forget all the innocent animals that I have loved which have been mistreated and killed, I can't forget how I have been treated and spoken to like dirt....and I can't trust noone apart from my family.
How do you get over that?
You are doing everything right.
You just have to give it time and a combo of meds and therapy will help.
Personally I dont think mental illness ever goes away but we can control it and the memories dont haunt us so much and we live our lives to the full
Stay Strong
Thanks Lynne,
I think you are right, I don't think it does. I suppose we just learn to live and cope with it. I have had counselling before and looking back now I think because I didnt continue with it is maybe where I went wrong.
Day at a time though, day at a time.
Thankyou for listening You stay strong too xxx
has your anxiety improved over time?
I have found my anxiety has got worse tbh. I find it incredibly difficult to socialise now, most days getting out of my front door is a challenge. I have these bizarre thoughts that everyone is looking at me so when I have been in a restaurant or anywhere where there is lots of people I get shaky and feel really uncomfortable. Or if its a night out I have to drink copious amounts of alcohol to calm my nerves. It's horrible .
hmm, and has therapy been helpful?
I had a couple of sessions years ago but due to a busy work schedule I didnt continue with it. I have seen the doctor recently and been referred to steps to well being - I have a telephone assessment this afternoon, I hope it helps.
Hopefully it works!
If you need anything at all, post on here or feel free to send me a PM.
You are not alone.
You can beat this.
Good luck and all the best!
Thankyou and thankyou for listening. It's nice to talk to people who understand, the world needs more people like that
no problem, I'm here to help!