Hello,
Around a week ago I read some article about a young man who killed himself after coming to the conclusion that there was no god and as such life is pointless. This terrified me and I suffered a terrible panic attack. Since then i have been really depressed (not really eating, just wanting to sleep all day research online about the meaning of life/ evidence for god etc). These thoughts about life and its meaning (or lack there of) are causing me major anxiety, distress and depression. I cant stop thinking that life may be meaningless if all we do is live for a short period then disappear into nothing forever and ever. People online seem to classify this as existential depression/existential ocd.Ive suffered from ocd/obsessive intrusive thoughts and anxiety for a few years now but thanks to medication (15mg of lexapro/cipralex) and therapy i'm able to live a somewhat normal life. I cant stop feeling really depressed and the anxiety of these thoughts come in waves throughout the day. Does this sound like depression? i dont want to feel like this anymore- I have a wonderful wife and beautiful daughter and need to pull myself round and be a good father and husband for them. Its like a switch has been flicked and all the light has went out of the world and im worried I will never feel happiness again. I have a appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow and i'm hoping I get a stonger dosage of meds or something. I have contacted my former therapist also. Has anyone experienced this or something similar? Am I losing my mind of is it ocd and depression?
Thanks
Hello Jordan. I do not think that you are losing your mind! I am so glad thy you wrote into us today and that you have made appointments with your psychiatrist and your therapist. You are definitely not a proscrastinator. In my experience we can fixate on a thought and let it scare us to pieces like this one about God. Maybe you can turn it into a positive and start looking into where you are in the spiritual side of you. Like what do you believe but don't obcess on it. What do you think? Diane
i completely understand where ur coming from, u r so not alone, best wishes,
You are not losing your mind, but you are having classic symptoms of depression.
Please read the Quran , don’t get worried when I say this, please don’t base Islam on what the media portrays it,
It’s such a wonderful experience and will answer your deepest question in your heart my friend, please it will really helpbtake your focus off the depression and it may even make u feel better.
God bless x
Hi Jordan - it sounds like depression - and you have had treatment for other issues previously. See your doc and discuss with him.
The cause of your last attack - that life is meaningless and there is no God - is shared by others. I have never doubted the continuum - the body dies, the conscious (soul) continues. I am not and have never been religious - although it was forced on us as children. My education came about not only by studying Near Death Experiences but also nursing the dying. After 40 years of such exploration i have absolutely no fear of the process of death. And, if it transpires that my conclusions are rubbish and death really is the end, then i won't know a damn thing about it.