Depression- no end in sight

Mental health
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A week or so ago, I posted that while I am not suicidal I do wish I was dead.  i have started Welbutrin and have been on it for a week now.

I have felt this community helpful, not just for the replies I recieved but trying to help someone else.

My dad died in January after I had been caretaking for him partime for years.  At the same time my career has taken a nose dive and I am in my thirties and single.

I have friends, but have learned repeatedly the hard way not to burden them too much with my depression.

Today was especially bad for me. I feel invisible and like I don't belong anywhere. I am worried about money and the unbearable constant lonliness.

I just don't see an end in sight. Someone please talk to me. thanks

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Hi Anon, have you felt the Wellbutrin help any? Ive heard that drug certainly helps, but that it sometimes takes a while to kick in. Im so sorry about you losing your Dad, i cant imagine how much harder that makes things...

I enjoy this community as well. Especially during my lonely times, it seems at least one or two people will usually respond and let me know im not alone. Im so sorry for you feeling theres no end in sight. Hopelessness is a difficult emotion and can be so difficult to overcome. Please just keep holding on and hopefully Wellbutrin will help give you some relief soon!

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Hello,i read your post, please go to the doctor and get meds, i was similar to you, i was so down and lonely, but meds do help, i know you dont feel like that right now, and you are in a hole you cant get out, but they do work eventualy, just keep with them and a day will come when you suddenly feel better. i am hoping for you to get better, and you are so young,all your life ahead of you, keep your chin up, and when you feel down, try and think of the day when you will feel better, these feelings wont last, just tell yourself that. my thoughts and best wishes are with you, take care.

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hello again, sorry i didnt see the part where you said you are on meds, well its only a week, soon they will work, goodluck to you.

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Thank you.  I don't know why today was especially bad. Everyday plays out the same, pretty much. Meaning nothing different happens. Just my mood was really bad today.

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Well hopefully the sun shines a little brighter for you tomorrow smile Keep doing what you can, keep taking your meds, and keep "talking" on here if it helps, ok? Depression is rough, very rough. We all will get through it together the best we can.

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Hi,

That feeling of being invisible, it's weird. I come across it all the time. People walk straight towards me like I don't exist, I just stand still, their choice.

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The first thing to remember is your are most definately not alone in how you're feeling.

The loss of a loved one can be a huge trigger especially if other aspects of your life are not how you wish they were.

Trying to work on 1 thing at a time is probably the best thing to do, you can't fix everything at once. Hopefully your medication will start to help soon & you'll feel a big difference.

Take 1 day at a time & it will get easier.

Lots of love 

 

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you get some realy bad days in the beginning b4 you start getting good days ,trust i know and the horrible ones seem to stick in your head untill you have a few good days then you slowly start 4getting the bad days,you will be ok just takes time,and your deffo not alone its a massive worldwide thing depression but it can seem a bit lonsome at times as its in the persons mind ,stay strong and keep fighting the fight,if u need to talk im always on here

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Yeah, since I no longer caretake for my dad and my career is bottoming up. There is not a place for me.  I have signed up to volunteer at my church.

Also, i have quieted down talking to my friends because I know they are tired of talking to someone who is always down

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thanks, gonna force myself to exercise today

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thank you. it really helps to talk to people who know exactly the feelings of depression

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thanks

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Hello

First please see your GP, you needs some medication and CBT.

When we loose a family member it can take in the region of two years before you will move on although your memories of your Father will be bitter sweet you will never forget your interaction between the two of you

One problem we all have is not been able to discuss your concerns and fears with friends. You will need to be careful and tell only those who have possitive vibes in your life

You can of course come on here and we will give support if possible

BOB

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Hopefully some volunteer work will come thru for you. If not try other places besides church. Talk to a job counselor to see what you can do about your job , talk to church minister about your feelings

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Hi,

As far as the money problems go to CAB. They will go through your finances with you. You will need to take all your debts/debtors and your outgoings and income, if any.

Do not be embarrassed about revealing your circumstances to them, be honest with them and they will help you to prepare a payment plan with your debtors.

Hope this helps you, it helped me tremendously.

Mike

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hi bob, thanks for replying the wellburtin is starting to make a difference

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ok, i will make sure i can find something with volunteering.

I have my own service business. currently I am learning a new skill so hopefully that will bring work back the way it is. If not I am going to go back to school and become a physical therapist

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hi fortunately i dont have any debt. i have my own service business that always did really well. then right at the same time my dad died it dived bombed mainly cuz i lost one client.

i am working on getting new clients and adding a skill. if nothing turns around i think i might go back to school and become a physical therapist.

The work decline really exasperated the depression. not just the money halting but the empty days

i have set up timelines for my progress hopefully something will change soon

thank u for replying. such a relief to have people here

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I in the same place as you are.I quit my Prozac after taking it for years I have tried to start back taking it the side effects I can't do took 10mg for years , now 5mg makes me sick too .Went to Dr. He dismissed everything I said wants me take it anyway don't know what to do.