Morning @dmp how have you been? Getting better I hope xx
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Good morning @ellxx
Thanks for checking in constantly, it’s really nice of you. How are you though? I seem to be doing a lot of talking and sharing but how’s things with you lately?
Well Friday morning wasn’t great, I’m finding that the tablet makes me sleepy within an hour or so, I’m not sure if that’s a side effect and will settle or if it’s permanent and I maybe need to look at taking it on a night and use the sleepiness to help me sleep. I’ll keep an eye on it this week. Saying that though I got home Friday tea time and had a great night, it was just me and the wife and we chatted which is something I’ve not felt like or done properly for a long time. Yesterday was probably my best day yet, we sat in the sun playing cards for a few hours chatting with the music on, we had tea outside with our son then our daughter came home and spent a while chatting with her, It’s really giving me hope.
Today’s not so good though, I feel really flat but I’m trying not to be too harsh on myself over it, afterall yesterday was a good day. I keep telling myself that more of those good days will come, I just need to be patient. Hopefully before long it will be more good than bad but I can only hope.
How’s your weekend? X
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How is everyone?
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Hey! Sorry for the late reply again I don’t get notification a on reply’s! How you doing @dmp xx
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How are you??? Xx
Hey @ellxx no need to apologise, we’re all busy in our own ways. How are things with you?
Things are all good here thanks, things seem to have taken a turn for the better and I hope it continues. I’m no longer breaking down and crying, my head is relatively empty, the anxiety and ruminations seem to have settled and I’m sleeping through to my alarm. I’ve just returned to work after another lovely weekend home and I don’t feel as bad coming back as I did a few weeks ago. I’m trying not to get too excited though and keeping my guard up slightly. I’m only 4 weeks into taking sertraline and 20 days into the 50mg dose so I’m not there yet. I am however, enjoying feeling more like myself and it’s nice to want to talk and laugh again.
Well, don’t things change quickly. I’ve gone from being on top of the world for well over a week to hitting a crash and it has hit me hard. I’d almost forgot what this feels like but here I am again, feeling flat and anxious and I don’t know what’s happened and I don’t know what to do, I just feel like crying and I haven’t felt like that for a while now.
I could feel it coming on Wednesday night but thought it was because I was really tired. I assumed I’d feel better after a sleep but it didn’t. Yesterday my anxiety was back, some ruminations and an all round flat day. Todays the same so far and I’m gutted because I really thought I’d hit the turning point. I go home today for the weekend and we had a lovely weekend planned, my daughter flies off to America tomorrow for 9 weeks which I’m sad about but me and the wife have a night away planned (I hope I don’t spoil it like this). My doctor is ringing me for another check up and I was really hoping to be able to tell him I was feeling loads better now.
I hope everyone else is ok though.