I love my thearpist I like talking I hate thinking about things I need help I really wanna get better the life I'm living isn't worth living I don't thing anything is gonna change bec I'm used to life being awfull I don't wanna be on meds bec they won't help when I leave thearpy I feel like I just went though tortures I hate being told to do things I don't wanna like taking meds I wanna be convinced I don't need it bec I really don't like the trial and error I don't like being depened on things I won't be sure if it's working & I hate myself anyway so y is it gonna help I'm mentally disrupted & I don't know y I don't just give up I really want life to just get better I hate me I wish I could just have more sopport the only person I really talk to is my thearpist but it's not enough I go 1 a week & I need help. 24/7 I wish I could just be okay I wish I could just be okay I wish someone in the world really loved or even liked me & cared about me I'm not really someone that pepole like bec there's not much to like my real wish is I didn't have to me but that's not possible unless I give up but I really wanna live & things get better I don't wanna go to camp or seminary bec I wanna still get help I need it & I can't really give up the one help I get I don't even feel like I'm getting helped I just really love talking but it's like so x enough I really want things to change
This post is my exact emotions in a paragraph. 
I don't have any advice really I'm in the same boat as you but if you want to talk I'm here for you
Me too
you need to listen to your therapist's advice and answer questions in order to work thru your problems. That is the only way talking therapies work.
Richard
Thank you for telling me that u feel the same
U made me feel better that someone can talk to me who's in the same boat as me
Aww I'm glad.