I owe so much money to my debits that i just wish i was dead
I'm sure this is very hard to take. But try to take some steps - even little ones - to resolve this problem. Remember where's there's life there is hope so please don't
give up on yourself. I wish I could say more to encourage you but please know that I am wishing the best for you and that is a better life.
Please go to a debt agency or citizens advice bureau they will give you advice don't be alone with this. Hope this helps.
I would URGE you to speak to either the National Debtline or Payplan. When I met my partner, she was up to her eyeballs in debt to the sum of £7000 (but didn't tell me until the baliffs arrived and I had to tell them to do one), and through Payplan we arranged an IVA for her so that her debts were all consolidated into an affordable way of paying it back.
My advice to you also would be to accept responsibility in what you have done as well and confide in somebody you trust, who will help you through it. If you have nobody, I would recommend you contact your local health authority and make enquiries into social services.