Depression?

Mental health
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Hello, I am 22 yrs and feel down since few months.

I am just realising that me and my life are just pure failure.

I have fell at everything I have done, never were able to finish things or just gave up. At that age I should already be almost done with studies, but no, got a job here and there, tried to learn at the same time, but it appears that my trend is failure.

Life hasn t be great, was 9 years in a foster family, where I was constantly under supervision. Then I was send back to my alcoholic parents who were living in another country. I was never able to integrate myself there. I was weak and naive, my so called "friends" droped me.

This is where failures started to be normal. I am questioning myself these days, I believe I have a problem, depression or mild retardation.

I was diagnosed with dyslexia once, but I truely believe the probleme is deeper than that. I can t concentrate, can t learn, it takes me forever to do things, such as writing this. I can t build construtive thoughs. My theory is that I got brain injuries as a child. Due to anxiety I started to headbanging around 3 year of age, and still do it sometimes.

I don t have any good friends and no girlfriend. I have no interest in anything, I am laying in bed and procrastinate on my laptop. I have no passion. I have tried to get out and socialize but have hard time, as cold I am. I can t hold a conversation with anyone, I feel retarted....,,

Everything I do has to be analysed. Than when I try to read I can t understand anything, can t condense information or relate it. Can t think logically and rationally. I am extremely slow in processing.

At the end I feel completely neutral, I feel like a debri that ramdomly travels over the sea. I Just let things happen.

What s wrong with me?

 

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Hi! Stick to us here in this forum. Somone tomorrow will have similar experience to you and be able to help. Keep checking back here. As it is late in the day you may have to wait until the morning.

I am sorry I cannot be of more help.Ii have no relevant experience. I do have experience on how very useful the forum is. Cheers

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If it seems apparent that you're depressed or have a hunch that you're suffering from any of the other possibilities I'd see a doctor of some sort if I was you. Don't delve into what the Internet has to say, 'cause that will do nothing but begin to make you depressed, I'm speaking from personal experience.

I procrastinate for all hours of the day and know it can seem like the best escape, in fact for me it still is. I was only diagnosed with depression a month ago, wish I knew sooner.

The issue you claim to have with all matter of written communication shouldn't hold you back in the slightest, actually it should be motivated for you to find a field you excel in and make that the main focus of your life. We're all different and unique in our way (this is coming from an identical twin) and better than others in some ways and vice versa. What is it besides surfing the web that you like to do?

Hope I could've been of some assistance jut I want you to keep in mind that I am only 18 years old and still have alot of learning to do myself to help me get out of my rut.

Peace :-)

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Hi. from reading your posting I can tell you are able to express yourself really well so you are not retarded.Start building your life like a ladder-one step at a time.Maybe go to an evening class about something that might interest you where you are under no pressure to learn. It can be anything from astrology to flower `arranging. There will be a common interest between everyone to chat about but don't feel the pressure to have to make conversation. It is under your control if you want to socialise. You need to relax more and don't judge yourself. Just be you. What ever `goal you set yourself make it small because it will bring confidence each step of the way.You haven't had good role models in your life to learn from and an insecure childhood. A lot of negativety in your life so you have to turn your life around.It won't be easy but I think you want to because you've contacted this site. Best of luck.

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Dear ..... 

You do not deserve that !!

You should focus on your self-confidence really .. ifeel that you have alot of things inside you amazing things Let it out do not be afraid 

and stay away from nagative friends belive me no one wants to see you succeed. 

Exercise drawing or any type of art ,Exercise Sports , wut about music ? be Wild do some new remix music ,stay away from Intrenet and your laptop .

with love 

We are human beings and we all have

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We are human beings and we all have Passion.