Depression

Mental health
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Feeling so so awful tonight. Like every little thing is pointless and meaningless. I just don't know what to do.

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hiya hope you can find strength to talk to someone

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What you have to do is ride it out.  Take stock and remind yourself of all the reasons you have to be here.  Nothing ever stays the same....you move on...you have been given the gift of life, it is a precious gift and your illness is blocking you from seeing that.  Seek help for your depression and then show the world why you were given this gift.  Most people who suffer with depression are very special people, they think deeply and they have so very much to give to the world.

Remember how special you are, this bad time will pass, but you have to make it pass.  Be strong.....you have no concept of the strength you have, you ARE special.

Let me know how you go on, I am rooting for you.

Pat xxxx

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thank you Pat, that is very kind. I am on meds at the moment and doing cbt but I feel like I've just hit rock bottom again. I feel like it's torture inside my head. I'm just swamped with feelings of anxiety and depression and every ten minutes I'm trying to push away the idea that life is pointless and everything is meaningless. It's not just sadness I feel empty and I cant switch my brain off .  I just can't see it passing at the moment, I've held on to the idea that it will pass for so long and it's exhausting.

I know that I won't harm myself. I just want to live a life without all this pain and fear.

thank you for you response xxxx

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I really do feel for you my dear, how long have you been on the meds? And youvare going to make it through , I felt exactly the same a few weeks ago, it was the first time in my life I thought about suicide . But the people on thos forum got ne through the toughest time of my life, And you will . Do what ever you can to try and feel better. For me it was hours of walking ,;talking to people on here , reading up about my illness either on line or in book shops. Swimming was and is still good for me, taking a bath or long hot shower. All this doesn't cure you and mkes you feel a tiny tiny bit better, and distracts your mind a little. If anything it makes the hours pass and helps you sleep.

All the best to you, you will be in my prayers. Faith is very helpful too. Remember if god brought you to it, he will bring you through it.

Its a path of learning. Xx

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How are you today, dk? 

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Hello,

I'm feeling a little better today thank you. I'm just trying to take my mind off things until I can see my doctor again. Thanks again for your message xx

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Thank you for your message. I've been on the meds for about 3 months now, and just started cbt. I'm taking your advice and just doing the things that make me feel a tiny bit better until I can see my doctor again.

Thank you again for your repy xx

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Hi dk

I'm feeling like this just now. Been on new med 4 weeks helped to start but my mood hasTaken a decline again just feel it in the pit of my stomach amd can't shut my mind off from thinking negative thoughts. It's horrible. Do you have kids or are you alone? I'm a single mum of 3 teenage boys and hate them seeing me like this. Xx

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Any time, im having a bad day, had a pamick attack yesterday and today feeling anxious.

Im 7 weeks on meds and been doing great. So im hopingvits just a blip,;if anyone canbadvisw me thatvbe great and most appreciated.

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Im the same! Dont lioe this at all.

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I really need advise and help

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Hi Kelly and Latifa, it might be helpful for you both to know that today I'm feeling a little bit more like myself, for the first time I've been able to switch off from th constant thoughts in my head and focus on something else, which as simple as that seems is a really big deal for me, don't get me wrong I steel feel bad but I've had a bit of relief from the panicking.

Latifa it sounds to me like you've had a little blip and your mind has gone in to panic mode about it. I do the same. It's all very well saying 'don't panic' (we wouldn't have a problem if it were that easy) but you will be ok. Just keep going. I know how horrible it is and we are all in it together. Do you have your next doctor's apt organised? I find having my next doctor's apt organised helps me as I just think 'i'll keep going until my next apt' and try to just get on with things, as difficult as it may well be. And I also have my massive breakdown moments too where I feel like I just want to lie in bed all day and sleep. But I think it's all part of it.

Keep strong!

Kelly I'm single and living with my mum at the moment, I'm very lucky because she is incredibly supportive of what I'm going through, even though she may not fully understand. I'm sure your boys don't like seeing their mum like this, but it's an illness and heaps of people suffer from it, and it time, you will recover. 4 weeks isn't very long, what are you taking and what dose if you don't mind me asking?

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I've responded properly to you below, it sounds like you've been doing great and had a blip, you will getter better just gotta ride it out like Pat told me above. I feel for you because I understand how it feels xx

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What lovely responses you give, dk, you are obviously a very caring person and your input on this site will be much appreciated.

Sometimes helping others is one of the ways to lift the symptoms of depression, I know it is that way for me.

Keep positive, all will be well.

Pat xxx

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Thanks Pat,

I also thought your response was lovely and really helpful. I hope you're feeling a little better too xxx

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Thanks so much dk25651, I think you are right. The last time I saw my dr was a week ago, I brought her a card to say thanks for getting me well, I had my mackup on and was in a really good place. She waa pleased and said ahw will not up my dosw and would put me on a repeat prescription. So should I ride it oit a bit longer or book an appointment? I did forget to take my meds on Thursday, but people tell me this will not have anything to donwith it? What do you think?

Thanks soooo much x

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I think maybe just book an apt for in a week or two? That way you will have something to aim for and if you're still feeling bad you can tell her then, if you're feeling better still tell your doctor about how you were feeling and I'm sure she can either up your medication or reassure you that these things happen and it doesn't mean you are back to square one. Also have you tried doing any meditation? I recently invested in the headspace meditation pack and i've only been doing it a few days but it has calmed me slightly. I've also found it helpful to only think about the day ahead, just taking it day by day makes things more managable, if I start to think too much about the future I try to bring myself back to the present day. This is a skill in itself though and is wuite difficult, but I've heard it's sopmething meditation can help with xx

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also- anytime! We are all on here to help xx

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thank you soo much, im not sure i can go a week or two like this? but ill try!

i have diazipam in my hand bag, i havnt taken it yet. im trying to be strong. ive heard meditation is good, and yoga. where do i get the meditation pack?

i think you are sertainly right just about thinking of today first rather than the next few days. i will prob need lots of reasurance on here untill i feel better again, thankyou.