I've been depressed for more than a year now. I am student on scholarship in a foreign country and I come from a very poor family. My studies are not English. I left my country to study medicine and prior to my first year in medical school I took a language course and later wrote entrance exams and passed. However, just before the beginning of first year of medical school something happened which broke me up. That was the beginning of my depression. Studying in a foreign language, school was already hard, now with depression it was becoming even harder and unbearable. Due to that I fell out of school and I could no longer be on scholarship but I had no other source of financial support to re-enroll or even apply for another program and so I had to appeal for the scholarship which I got miraculously. After that I took entrance exams for economics and I passed. However, I couldn't handle the course because I had had no exposure to such a course in preparatory school as I was in a prep school for medicine. My depression storms from a number of things. The first being that I'm getting old and yet I haven't achieved anything. I'm now 23. Fear is another factor I fear for my future. I can't talk to my family because they get more worried than me and there's nothing they can do to help me if I lose the scholarship. I also wouldn't want to return home without any academic achievement after 3 years of being away. All I wish for is death, I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up.
Hi Koppy,
I know that you feel very overwhelmed and a tremendous amount of pressure from yourself and from your family.
But, you are very young and have your life ahead of you, marriage, kids and a career. This trouble will pass. Try not to panic, but make a plan. Try and write down a plan for where you want to be in a year. Then make an outline month to month on how to achieve that.
Although, you don't have an economic academic background, you have one that is far more difficult and you possess critical thinking abilities. Don't let the course work overwhelm you. Instead, seek assistance, perhaps a tutor. I know you can get through this type of curriculam.
Although, I think you should have a yearly goal in place, still just take it one day at a time with your goals. Try and achieve one academic goal a day and build from there.
You have already accomplished so much more than most people. Receiving an a scholarship and studying in foreign language for three years is amazing. Don't forget that.
Good luck and God be with you.
Hi im so sorry you feel this way.
You have achieved so much academically by the sounds of things already for which u should feel so proud. U are still young, certainly not old at 23.
I understand u stiĺl have more u want to study for but holding such high goals for yourself when depressed will seem like you are walking through treacle up mount kilamanjaro with no end in sight!!
Please see a dr, and talk about how you feel. And possibly try to work part time and do night classes just to recover. Be kind to yourself....
I never have, and u end up unhappy and so will ur family.
Im sure if they love you they will want you to be the happiest you can be. The happier u are the likeliest scenario will be a successfull u....just a little further down the road.
Take care. Xx kp fighting.
Take liquid b supplements go to a Spanish store or Spanish supper market and tell them your stress You looking for b vitamins liquid supplements most likely they got them or go get your vitamin panel checked out to see was going on with that check your testosterone