Feel like my family is not connected to me as if im going to forget who they are I have to keep reminding myself as too how they are. Can anyone relate
As too who they are
Yes I can defnitiely relate to that. Not feeling real is a symptom of depression, Have you told a doctor you feel this way, and are you getting any help?
I have had those feelings in the past, and they have always been associated with depression for me. Once I sought and received treatment, they began to pass and I don't feel like that now rather the opposite, close to my family and knowing that we all care about each other. Good luck.
Hello Tanya, In 1991 I had brain surgery to remove a tumor in my right temporal lobe. That operation caused me to develop bipolar illness. I suffered severe depression soon after the operation and had 3 suicide attempts after... not to mention a couple of psychotic episodes because of too high a dosage of anti depressants. To make matters worse, a year later my sister who was suffering from post-partum depression after the birth of her second child comitted suicide. Because of the huge cocktail of medications that I'm on, I can't work. I'm zombied out. No more depression just mania. Well my parents didn't know what to make of the mental illness in our family. They joined the Family & Friends group at the local Mood Disorders Association. They stayed in the group for over 5 years and ended up becoming facilitators of the group. The learned a lot about mental illness and passed the information onto my siblings who have become so supportive ever since. To this day my sister pays over $90 a month for my bus pass. My Dad pays for my dental work at the local dental college... not to mention other perks. My brother takes me out grocery shopping once a month and foots the bill. Sadly, when my wife at the time heard that I had bipolar illness, someone told her "Oh - He'll be in and out of the hospital the for rest of his life. You better get rid of him." So-o-o she did. But my two kids to this day still love me to death. My daughter sometimes takes me clothes shopping and pays the bill. Both her and my son-in-law have great jobs. By them I also have a 2 year old grandson with a second grandson due in April of this year. My son still just loves me to death. He on the other hand isn't as fortunate as my daughter. He's barely making ends meet. I only wish I could help him. He's so over worked that his mariage is in limbo and he splits custody of my 7 year old grandaughter with his wife. He's got a good job with the local university as chief administrator but the government handles its funding and isn't very supportive financially. i.e. no overtime... no support staff... no perks of any kind. At least they aren't divorced yet. There's hope for them yet.
All I can say to you is try and get your family into a support group if you can. It would really make all the difference in the world. Don't loose hope in them. The word will get out to them that it's not your fault that you behave the way you do. You have an illness. You can't help the way you feel or behave. If you had a different illness would they treat you the same. NO! If only they would get that through their thick skulls.
As far as my ex goes... I don't hold it against her. She just got some bad advice and fell for it. She just didn't give me a chance to get even a little better.
I'm a far better person than I was 24 years ago but I am no where near perfect in any way. I have been going to the support group for people with bipolar illness at the Mood Disorders Association for years now. I try to provide positive feedback to those who don't have support... don't have good doctors... are not on the right medications... you name it. There is always light at the end of the tunnel.... such as disability pensions that pay well... new medications that work for some people but not others. Communication with the doctors is essential. There are no magic pills that work the same for everyone. Getting on the right medications is a trial and error business. Sometimes it takes years (as it did with me) to get on the right cocktail of meds. There is hope for you yet. YES people with mental health issues can get a lot better in time with the right help. There are good and bad doctors out there. I pray that you find the right one soon.
You have my love and prayers today Tanya !!! xxx ooo