This have been difficult for me internally. I got it from a guy I was dating who lied to me about having it, he claimed he had another skin situation that wasn't an std but he could still transmit and it's uncomfortable so we used condoms. One time it slipped off and he seemed a little worried but not too much and bright did I. We saw each other one more time after that and he asked me if I had noticed anything weird down there and I said no. After that, he never spoke to me again. Just disappeared. Then I met a guy at a bar who eventually became my bf but while we were dating I got what turned out to be my first outbreak and I had no idea until I got a positive back from planned parenthood. My worst fears came to life. Now to tell my bf what was going on. He took it a little hard but didn't break up with me and never made me feel bad...although he was still coming to terms with it himself because we had had unprotected sex a few times. A year later we are still together yet we have been having issues...and I get scared because if we break up, who will want me? I have a friend who really likes me and jokes that he will wait for me but how do I tell him don't bother wasting your time with me? I have herpes. And I don't want him to know and tell other people. I'm having my second outbreak now and it just all brought it back. A year later. I feel like such a waste and more disgusting than ever. I don't know what to do.....
when you had what u think was your first outbreak, was it after sex with the guy who is now your boyfriend or before sex. Because sometimes you may think it's the first guy who gave it to you when actually it's the second guy.
The reason I'm pretty sure it was the first guy was because he actually mentioned he had something, although he claimed it wasn't considered an STD and then just disappeared on me.. I don't know where he is but I just remember him asking me if I had noticed anything down there and I never thought about it until now.
I've had this for 2 years and only knew it for a month now. I'm actually in a good place. It sucks but you can't let it define you. You are still who you were before this and you will be the same person after. You aren't alone and everyone feels that way for awhile. The right person will accept it. Trust me. You can't hold on to any anger towards the person who gave it to you, bc that doesn't help matters. Being upset and angry won't change the situation. It's here to stay and we just have to move forward.