I'm Seroquel atm, taking 300-400mg to "stabilize".
Background:
I came to my school's health center to complain about strange visual distortions, inability to think, and racing incomplete thoughts. I would blank out when answering as if something was prohibiting me from completing my thoughts. I had also mentioned to them that I had taken marijuana edibles a few days ago, and my issues with self harm, mainly hitting my head with my fists. Some of their questions really pressured me and my anxiety peaked. I plugged my ears and I told them i wanted to hit myself. The school took precautinary steps and decided to put me on involuntary psychiatric hold. The whole thing was mildly traumatic. I experienced a peak in anxiety and then transported from place to place, everything was lucid and a blur.
The nurses were confused as I was normal and cooperative. Soon enough I was let out early. Then I experienced uncontrollable stuttering. My thoughts couldn't complete, and I ended up thinking something over and over again. I was experiencing constant derealization, but very different from what I normally experience. Hallways would stretch, people's faces would remain blowed up in my head, erratic thoughts of harming people to the point where my wife had to hold me down. It was awful.
I was first prescribed 25mg of seroquel which put me to sleep. I eventually upped the dosags to 100mg which alleviated my stuttering for an hour. Then finally, 300mg which held off my stuttering long enough. Oddly, under seroquel I couldn't hear my own voice form in my head. Right now, it gets rid of paranoia, aggression and the strange lucid feeling.
Something's changed after i got out of the ward. I havent felt normal at all. When my medication wears off, I go through a constant lucid state, which could potentially rile up my anxiety.
My question is, do you agree with my diagnosis? My main issue with it is, I dont feel depressed, nor was I in a depressive time in my life.