did it again... two day bing :(

nh_user_595002 · April 25, 2015, 9:00pm

I ask myself why ... the only reason I have is because I have a drinking problem

nh_user_596902 · April 25, 2015, 9:19pm

Me too, mine was about a 12 day lonely bender drinking vodka on my own outside in all weather

nh_user_562016 · April 25, 2015, 9:26pm

Awwww, Sue, I am so sorry that you are sad.

It's OK, start again.

I have gone over my limit for some reason tonight....but I guess the reason is the same as yours....I have a drinking problem.

Tomorrow is another day.

Pat

nh_user_595002 · April 25, 2015, 9:27pm

why do we do this

tomorrow back to work

my job can be very challenging t times

I just pray for help

nh_user_595002 · April 25, 2015, 9:28pm

yes you are right thank you Pat smile

nh_user_596902 · April 25, 2015, 9:29pm

I've been dry for 13 days since, back to work Monday for the fourth 'last' time.....

nh_user_595002 · April 25, 2015, 9:30pm

oh It is so easy to fall back agin.... gotta get my ducks in a row lol HELP

nh_user_595002 · April 25, 2015, 9:32pm

I have been almost 4 months ... its a death trap

I cant believe how easy it is to fall back sad

nh_user_596902 · April 25, 2015, 9:32pm

We're all doomed....ah, not really, give yourself a break, we just love getting drunk, I do, but I'm a crap drunk in every way, so it's best to clean up...

nh_user_595002 · April 25, 2015, 9:35pm

I have never seen a good drunk smile

nh_user_595002 · April 25, 2015, 9:37pm

did it once will do it again... but I now know I cant go back sad

nh_user_596075 · April 25, 2015, 9:45pm

There definitely isn't a 'good' drunk, last few weeks I've slackened a bit but tonight on my sons 21st with all his mates round, (most I know and most know I love a drink) I stayed very focused, it was so different, I had to be controlled and a bit bossy and prob not as 'cool' as I used to be but it makes me proud of myself.

Stay strong guys we all have off days this was never going to be easy

If it was hey we wouldn't have a problem would we ??

Much love xxxx

nh_user_562016 · April 25, 2015, 9:47pm

Sue, you can do whatever you want to do, you are stronger than you think. It wasn't your choice to be alcohol dependent, you have fought and stuggled to overcome this terrible affliction. Don't give up now, be proud of what you have done.

I know you will be back supporting everyone, as you have in the past....I always trust you and look to you for advice.

Pat

nh_user_631231 · April 25, 2015, 10:21pm

We all ask ourselves why???? There are lots of reasons why it starts then it becomes habit which is why it then becomes a problem!!!! I admit I have a drinking problem which goes hand in hand with the depression and anxiety!! So it then becomes a viscious circle which do you combat first?????

anon53727290 · April 26, 2015, 12:06am

Hi Sue, hope you manage to stay sober on day three. I have gone on a 2-3 week binge since my first 2 weeks of sobriety. I regret not making a post on day 2, like you have, It's great you are self-aware and wish you the best

nh_user_562016 · April 26, 2015, 8:53am

I know what you are saying, Sandie. I too am in that viscious circle. It's a form of self-medication for me.....a release from the depression and anxiety. I am told that alcohol causes depression, so I feel I am between a rock and a hard place.

I will keep on trying though....never say never.

Pat

nh_user_596902 · April 26, 2015, 8:57am

Its a mare, im sitting here with lemon tea thinking about vodka. im anxious & down, wont do it though, but soooo tempting....

nh_user_562016 · April 26, 2015, 9:05am

Well done Roger. Stay strong and determined.

Sending a big hug.

Pat

nh_user_596902 · April 26, 2015, 9:18am

smile