I have been on it for 17 years and the dose is 20mg, I started out on a much lower dose which was gradually increased for the first 10 years, I held at 18mg for 7 years then it was increased by 2mg about 6 months ago.
Anyway I will get to the point, for the past 8 months my anxiety and agoraphobia have been horrific, I did get a bit better which took a few months of me applying coping techniques and exposure therapy but in the past few weeks have had a huge relapse again.
I contacted the mental health team and they sent a CPN to assess me at home, the CPN said I need to see a consultant, fine if I an get there because he refuses to come here, anyway the CPN said the consultant will want to take me off the diazepam.
I asked what kind of taper plans and support I might expect and was told that generally they look at reducing it by 2mg per week, I am horrified by this, I have done enough research to know that it is not safe to go that fast.
Now don't get me wrong I know it's a bad long term drug and can cause a lot of problems but I do not feel safe in the hands of any doctor who withdraws patients that quickly and I also do not feel that I am stable enough to start a taper at this point in time, I am so unwell and not only that but my mother died recently so I am trying to cope with the shock of that too, the last thing I need is another problem.
Can I refuse to reduce at this point in time? My gp has always said she would never force me to reduce, it would be when I was ready and at my pace, she also thinks it is a bad time to do it but as I understand it the psychiatrist is above her and can make a final decision unless I am mistaken.
Right now even if I can make it to this appointment I don't want to go because I am terrified of being made to withdraw in this state and especially at that pace, there was literally no support from them for the current problems I am having ,I was trying to ask about other help like therapies but they just kept saying 'yes well you see the consultant and he'll want you off the diazepam'
I don't think it is right that I get no say, I have young children too who are on the 6 week school holidays and that is another reason I don't want to go through withdrawal at the moment, it's bad enough being ill in front of them without that.
I think at the moment I will just not go, the CPN is coming back on Sunday though so will be pressuring me again, I just wondered if I actually have any rights to insist I have a say in this matter, does anyone know? I'm in the UK btw, Thanks.