I feel so low I mean low ...yesterday was hell...and so its been like for a long time now ..... But now i,m on my way to a rapid cycle ......irrational thoughts this morning i mean irrational.....but now i,ve done the washing cut the hedge of which i cut through the wires 12 years i,ve had that hedge trimmer.....lol omg lol ....i,ll be totally manic by this evening any one do this ......
I did that once with a hedgetrimmer. Frightening isn't it.
Hi maggs me to its been an awful 3 weeks up n down like a yoyo ..not sleeping. Fighting against the sleeping pill.. shopping obsessively 😢 being so low nor to move off the chair.. next minute hammering nails in the bathroom floor.. my house looks like hoarders from hell atm .. I'm normally like Monica off friends. . Come to a head Wednesday I just wanted to die crying so much the pain my head causes me the desp need to be normal ..it caused me to have panic attacks ..👊 I feel warn out totally now. What meds u on maggs?
Carbamazepine 400mg quetiapine 500mg diazepam 2mg ..feel I,m on boat loads .....400 and 500 scares the hell out of me my meds .....but I don,t want to be where I was in 2009 although I feel I,m slipping into a more depressive state that Manic ...have new rapid cycling too at the mo .....
Ahhhh I take 1000mg lithium I did try quetiapine but the weight gain was a problem.. also take venlafaxine which is a heap of poop hoping to go on citrolpram iv heard others on lithium & citrolpram & works well.. cnt sleep on venlafaxine & iv had the worst rapid cycling ever ..well since iv a great need to get better anyway ..
I,m desperate to get better been like this too long buts it hell trying to fight with your mind .....at the moment literally trying to get out of the house take the dog to the beach but the anxiety is kicking in ....i start cognitive analytical therapy Monday ...yippee hope it helps ...constantly battling with your mind is no way to stay healthy .....omg the rock bottom s the highs the in-between s ....all in a day Sharon where next ....x
They say the way to get well is except your illness not true, I excepted it years ago. It's the pure torture youv got to put up with .. I think giving me venlafaxine has made me so much worse bt the phyciatrist new this .. I cnt complain either. I so hope your therapy helps u I tried mindfulness course nt so long ago .. I couldn't concentrate .. 😢
Hi Maggs.
I'm not bipolar but I do understand where you're coming from
Yesterday I was here talking to Sharon and Barb about it, my boyfriend is bipolar and I get overwhelmed with his mood changes.
I understand that I have to be patient with him because I think he is worth it.
Stick to your medicine. Don't stop taking it.
Surround yourself with people that won't bring you down, happy, positive people.
I wish you the best
Take care.
Lorena
Hey lorena how are things ?? If you ever need any advice u can private msg me anytime I will help as much as I can xx
Thanks Sharon.
I would like that.
I usually don't tell people that my boyfriend has this because, you know people are judgmental and think the worst.
It would be nice to have someone to talk about this.
Thank you
There's no understanding of it huni that's the worst thing. I'm 44 and only a handful of people no.. I'm not ashamed bt people don't care to know. I don't have a suportive family either so I think that has stopped me talking about it. Just so tiring 😞 but this site gives you hope 😊
I waken up very hyper , after only a couple hours sleep, full of bright ideas and good intentions, but by lunch time I hit a low! Feel like crying! By supper time I'm back feeling hyper ! my moods/episodes varey from time to time but this pattern has been steady for the past few weeks! It's tiring on the brain! I'm trying to do mindfulness but I also can't concentrate, I've no concentration what's so ever!
Hi Wayne iv been like that for about 3-4wks it's coming to an end now thankgod.. Iv spent so much money I feel like punching myself in the head. Can I ask what meds your on & do u ever stop taking them routinely? I take lithium & sometimes dnt, I just can't be bothered because someone or something has upset me yet again. I think that's when I have these episodes . Yes your so right it absolutely wears you out ..some days I'd have no sleep if it wasn't for zopiclone. I tried mindfulness too & only done 1 session couldn't concentrate therefore couldn't do the homework ..
Hi Sharon . I've never took meds I've been prescribed, I tried citralpram? Think that's how you spell it ha, a few years ago but only took it for 1 week and stopped! I've been prescribed various medication but I didn't take it to be honest! About 5 years ago I self medicated with dizapam, it was ok to start with but then I got addicted to it! I've stopped taking it now! I go months sometimes managing to keep things together ! But the last few months I've been struggling! I am constantly thinking , my mind never stops! I don't like talking to the people close to me as they don't understand and it's not there fault tbh, I'm 33 and I've had this since I was 16, but only got told it was bipolar disorder about 4 years ago! It's really starting to get to me now! Do you sleep much ?
Sorry I ment diazepam ! (Valium) have you ever tried anything like that?
Oh Wayne u need to take meds u really do the condition gets worse otherwise. I'm like u iv been ill since early teens ..1st went the docs when I was 13 gave me pills I didn't even know what they were. I managed to hold it together the best I could (very hidden) my family didn't care & still don't. They wnt even believe iv got it. I'm now 44 but only got diagnosed 3 years ago..even though iv been on meds for years obviously not for the right condition. I suffer really bad with insomnia if I dnt take a pull I dnt sleep ..I think that's why iv been nuts for weeks not been taking the pill I'm told there really addictive. . But I to dnt wNa see people or talk because your right they dnt understand or don't care to so there's no point upsetting yourself. Quetiapine is a good med u no ..& it helps you sleep it's great I luvd it but it piled weight on me so I went down hill 😕
No I havnt ya no.. only zopiclone .. I think years ago I was give 2mg pills while waiting to see me .
You never heard of Valium? They are very addictive! Yes Sharon I'm starting to think I need to take something as I've been just getting on with it for years but it's really getting to me now! that's what I'm worried about, I've heard you can put on a lot of weight, and I've heard that some of the meds can make you worse?? Zoplicone is very addictive I've took that before! Yes your right the lack of sleep is hard work! I feel like I don't need much sleep! The more I get the worse I seem to feel, wen I waken up first time! I'm up like a rocket, weather it's a hour or few hours sleep I've had! A lot of people don't understand do they? Especially family ! Is this a good forum for information and advice? I've just joined! It's good to talk to people that's on the same boat and understand where I'm coming from 😕
Yer iv heard of it but it's not something iv been prescribed I dont think. Do u live in UK? ? Yes this is a good site ..Iv been on it since about March because I had a bad time on mirtazapine. .so I googled the problem & it brought me to this site 😊 it's the only socialising I do 😂😂 it's really good to hear other people's story.. its opened my eyes to alot things ..especially side effects ..when I thought it was just me getting old before my time .. I'd never of known the meds were causing it.. but most definitely ask your doc about quetiapine. . I'm on lithium now I have to have bloods every 3months. I found quetiapine the better drug mindfully. But I have a very slow metabolism due to not eating over the years so weight would of always have been a problem for me .
Yes I live in Scotland ! Are you in the uk? I've tried mitrazapine aswel, they mess your head up after a while imo. Yes you feel really alone with this illness , and detached from everyone else, did u put on weight due to meds? I seen a phsycoligist the other week and she told me about mindfulness,it seems like to much hard work! I don't have a lot of patience, I know I need to give a real go tho! I get very agitated and angry when I try to concentrate on things and I can't concentrate! 😡 Ha! I will give this forum a go and see how I get on 👍