I havs so many difficulties keeping friendships going, and I worry I keep screwing it up by being me. I have a friend at the moment who has stopped communicating with me as soon as she got a boyfriend, I don't see her or hear from her and it really upsets me. I keep thinking I have done something wrong and I want to call her and ask but I'm holding back because I worry I'll make it worse. I haven't managed to tell this friend that my Mum was diagnosed with breast cancer in May because of her lack of contact and interest in me, but I so badly need her support in this just someone to talk to other than family. Then I have another friend who I stayed with last weekend and I did tell her about my Mum, maybe it was too much info? Anyway I am sure I have messed this up badly now. She told me she hates her job and it makes her feel poorly and I sympathised with her and suggested she applied for something else because her health was more important. A week later I sent her a message asking how she was doing and if things had got any better at work. Well it showed up as message read and she even posted something online but absolutely no reply. I am sure I have committed some heinous social crime in asking how she is. Maybe I shouldn't have bothered? I thought I was doing a nice thing.
Do I sound like I've done something wrong to either friend because right now I'm sure I've lost all my friends and made myself even more lonely than before. Should I just keep my Mums cancer diagnosis to myself on future to avoid scaring friends away?