Wke up today with the same sick dread,feel fat,ugly and that life is pointless.ANY GOOD DAYS ARE REPLACED BY WORSE ONES,why is this?!
I know all about being patient and this really helps to clarify my thoughts but its taking so long and I want just a tiny hint of a sustained improvement.Everything bad makes me cry and then busily start planning suicide.How many meds can one person tae without getting some respite?!
Jox
Feelin the same way jo, i can't find any answers any more.. 
Hi charlies girl,,
Ive tried listening to music for hours,trying my best to keep on top of the housework and talk normally to husband who is totally fed up with the lack of improvement.Days just pass and I feel like Im wasting them,perhaps there arent any answers perhaps this is it,well just have to make do and stop hoping for a while
Thinking of you
take care
jox
Hi
me too,lost all sense of time.one day is the same as the next.yes days do just pass and i let them.2 weeks on Mirtazapine now Dr has increased to 30mg from 15mg.(even though i'm having a terrible time.In particular the tiredness and dizziness.However even though I'm tired I can't sleep.Has anyone felt the \"crawly\" feelings in their legs in particular at night.
Charlies girl I agree perhaps ther aren't any answers,I've kept hoping for so long with each change of medicine and as the weeks pass by.Not even sure if I have the energy for that hope and then I start to feel worse when ithink of all the wasted time staying in the house,not going to work...etc
Thank you for sharing it really helps (if only momentarily)
Take care
J