In the past few days I've had my first outbreak. It started with what I thought was a pimple until I took a mirror down there and was like "whoa that looks like textbook herpes". It's only one spot about the size of my thumbnail so I guess I'm luckier than some, but it got worse and it hurts to move and walk around now. After about 2 days I went to a gynocologist (of course I'm crying hysterically through all of this worreid that I'll never have love or sex again). The gyno didnt answer any of my questions (I like in japan doctors are very stoic) and only gave me a cream. no meds. I got a fever the next day of 104 that lasted for like 12 hours then took dayquil to break it. I've been achey, I got a sore thought, I even developed a wet cough and have been coughing up gross green colored mucus - so my whole immune system has shut down along with my sanity and sense of self-worth.
To get to the point - I recently broke up with my long term boyfriend (worst timing ever). We were together between 1-2 years and have never had unprotected sex. Before him however, I was sleeping around with a few people and had a few partners condomless. I imagine I must have got it then and I think this has been lying dormant for years and this is my first real outbreak.
My questions is - now that I have had this initial serious awful outbreak... is this just the beginning of a lot more to come even though I've probably had this for years? Does a first outbreak after dormancy trigger more future outbreaks? I was undergoing crazy levels of stress before this outbreak so I'm sure that's what brought it out.... anyway I feel very alone with this - especailly in a foreign country without my friends and family (and as of recently without my only friend here who was my boyfriend).
So I'm taking to the internet for advice and support. Any words would be appreciated. Also advice on how do navigate the dating scene? my friend (who I told about this) sent me a message yesterday "Hey I'd like to set you up with my friend Steve I think you guys would get aong" and then a few minutes later said "oh wait nevermind sorry I forgot you can't have sex"... which as I'm sure you can imagine sent me down a rabbit hole of saddness and misery. So help please