I call it the devil, it lives inside my head and it makes me think death related things towards the people I love and care about. I always argue with it and clarify myself letting it know that I wouldn't wish any of these thoughts on anyone. it's driving me insane. please help?
Hi
Don't fight it just let it in and let it go it will soon lose the power when it realises that your not bothered
It's hard because if I let it in I think it's going to jinx
It sounds to me like some sort of OCD. Not schizophrenia, because that usually comes along with social withdrawal and much stranger, more irrational thoughts than worrying about the death of loved ones. Definitely some sort of anxiety. Get some help to manage it.
If you read posts about schizophrenia I can assure you it will convince you that you have it. It's more of an anxiety disorder it sounds like