I'm only 15 but I feel like in a few years I'll be dead. I have had headaches for a while in all different places and currently they're at the back of my head. I suffer from OCD and can get really bad intrusive thoughts. All I can think is that I have a brain tumor and see no point in planning ahead for things such as uni etc. My hands shake sometimes and the headaches can sometimes be all over. I also find myself a lot of the time in school just staring thinking about death and I'm getting behind in my GCSEs. I want to try but all these thoughts behind me and carry on with my life but I really don't know how to get out of these feelings. Can anyone please help to reassure me!
Hi Rebecca
sorry to hear you arnt feeling well but you do need to work on your gcse because I can guarantee if you don't 5,10,15,10 years later you'll be slogging away cursing the day you left school with nothing this is speaking from experience.
with regard to headaches and other thoughts the fact it is not localised suggests it's tension, bet you have been bent over your laptop staring at the screen endlessly googling
when did you have your eyes tested do u need glasses or vdu protector?
when you are bent at this angle you place a lot of strain on your neck muscles, when you consider the weight of your head balanced on the small bones of your neck your muscles work hard to maintain posture
I'm guessing you possibly wear those ballet pumps when at school and like many a teenager carry the weight of the world on your shoulders with your head forward rather than upright and correctly balanced.
hope that helps crack on with the studying
hun i have been the same as you all my life !
mummy am i going to die at the age of 5 ! how awful !
but nobody got me help i started drinking alchol and messed all my gcses up i was the same as you im now 22 ! and guess what i still have to rely on others because i cant work sometimes i cant leave the house ! inever seeked help until recently and thats something you need to do you need support and you can do it you can forgot the worries you just need to learn to accept that you ae young and these intrusive thoughts are just thoughts ! there ruining my life too but im started to realise when one happens to just think happy thoughts over them i hope your ok if you need to chat im here xx
Hi Rebecca
I am so sorry that you are dealing with this and so young too! 
It really is horrible but you can't give up! You will still be here in years to come, don't worry! I get the headaches too, nearly everyday. And they start at the side of my head and move to my temple and my eyes and then the back of my head. I hear that they are stress or tension head aches because they move around. It's hard to believe but it's probably true. See your GP if you're worried?
I really hope that you feel better soon, do you have a family member or a close friend that you can speak to? Maybe even your school nurse? Sometimes I wish I was still at school so I could speak to the school nurse lol.
If you look at the posts on here, there are a lot of people with anxiety who suffer from these head aches. Now that either says that most people with anxiety have brain tumours or that it is just a symptom of anxiety.
Feel better soon, speak to someone and try and focus on school and your GCSE's it might just take your mind off your symptoms. I know that when I have a headache i put some music on to distract myself and it goes away xxx
Didn't think I mentioned going to the opticians but I did and came back with 20/20 vision. I've been doing just that on Google at the minute and have come back with some many life threatening problems over the last few months! I just wanted to make sure things like the muscle twitching was anxiety but I've also realised I sleep in quite an odd position with my neck twisted. Thanks for the reply it has helped and I hope you're ok too!
Very sad to read that but glad you can admit to it and are getting stronger keep it up
Thank you so much for you reply, I've been crying quite a lot tonight and it's really improved my thoughts and given me some hope! Sorry to hear about yourself! I've thought some many times to just give up on school and find myself jealous of others as I think they have a proper future and I'm stuck her dieing! Hope you've been feeling well today and I'll try get help from friends etc!xx
jelousy isa killer and im one with green eyes too i look at people and get so jelouse but you have to remeber even though you have anxiety you are just the same as everybody else you have a whole life infront of you and i can remeber how emotional it was been so young feeling hopeless i look back now and regret it thats something you really dont want to be doing ,you want to be looking back and remebering how strong you was and are 
p.sa cry always help xx
Thanks for the reply! At the moment though I just feel like there's so much to come out of the world and there's so many opportunities offered but I just have an underlying thought that in the future I'm not even going to be here. I try prevent myself from mentioning anything to do with the future as it triggers a thought saying things like 'you won't even be there' I know that sounds really silly but if I attempted to say that aloud I'd just be in tears and it would be impossible. I've seen about the brain tumours and that's helped ease my mind so much! Thanks for the reply support like this from strangers is really improving my outlook on the future! Hope you're feeling ok too! Xx
These replies are improving my thoughts so much already but I can't help wondering what I'll feel like when I twitch again or have pins and needles, is there anyway of trying to prevent all the thoughts. How have you made 22 with these thoughts! Imagining leeds fest in summer feels so distant to me, I don't even imagine myself going to that right now. Thank you so much for all you help though! xx
I used to think like that a lot and still do just not as often. My friends are all having kids now and all I could think was that I probably won't live to have children and if I do then I'll die and not get to see them grow up so I won't have kids. A stupid thought but very upsetting.
All I can say is try to breathe and relax. That's what I did, it took a while but I don't have as many intrusive thoughts anymore. I actually have a sore neck right now from sleeping funny and am able to accept it and move on.
You'll get there hun, just stay strong and don't let the anxiety beat you xxx
Hi know how you feel. I have had a bad head for over 2 weeks and I worry that I have a tumour. I do suffer from health anxiety. Brain tumours are very rare and headaches are not. Try to keep telling yourself that. Have you had counselling or CBT that might help. Tell your doctor how you feel. Keep in touch
What a lovely name.
- just dump it. The whole lot. Keep going on the treadmill others have provided you with? - and for what?
15? Be you. Stay sensitive and caring, Always. If you do, be prepared to go on getting upset sometimes at how horrible this world can be. Do remember, however nasty this world might seem to be sometimes, for all it's failings, decent, good people are all around us and meeting them reminds us to love and wait for that sudden day we all experience when we wake up and everythings' suddenly in colour and you just feel so happy to be simply born and alive.
I don't know if any of the above applies to you but this does - be true to you or you're (we're all) sunk. Good luck.
Don't need to say 'Good Luck' because time is on your side if you did but know it
The head aches your getting are tension headaches especially in the back of your head neck etc... everybody has irrational thoughts so your not alone but with anxiety you think about them more, I would advise to get your we yes tested incase you need glasses but you will be fine stay strong xxx
Thank you, this has reassured me so much. I never knew anxiety could actually cause physical problems too. My headaches felt less bad today and I didn't feel like I was shaking. Someone even said I looked happy for a change haha.
Hope you're ok as well and thanks again for all the advice! Xxx
Thanks for the reply. I had one early December that started around my left eye. Google straight away made me think it was a tumour. The opticians said I was fine and had really good vision and I also heard they can sometimes tell if someone has a brain tumour? Not sure if that is right but it's just taken longer for the ones at the back of my head to go. I started twitching and shaking adding to my worries. After all this replies I feel a bit more postive and wel try see help soon. I hope you're anxiety not bad at the moment either! Thanks for the advice
Thanks for the reply and the advice! My thoughts recently were just filled with that I'm not going to even live till 16. I've been trying to think more on school and the shaking today has been less then normal. Thanks again!
Thanks for the reply! My eyes are perfectly ok apparently. It's just the majority of the time the headaches are on one side of my head. Have you had thoughts like mine before? What helped you get through them? Xxx
Your at a critical time in your life and a stressful one, I have thought that my head aches are brain tumours but we have to ty and think differently, it's very hard and its mind over matter, I have had panic attacks and anxiety of 17 years and I can give you all the advise but I myself can't take my own lol its a funny thing xxxx you will be find xx
Brilliant you are there you can do it keep writing how well you are doing and smile its impossible to be anxious and to smile