Hey there about a month ago I had sex with someone I thought I knew. I was pretty drunk but I do remember asking him to put a condom on and asking him if he had any diseases. He told me that he had recently been checked and that he was clean. About two weeks ago I was admitted to the hospital because I had a lot of discharge and was bleeding. I'm also on the depo shot so I just thought it was something to do with that. Unfortunately it wasn't. Turns out the guy had lied to me and now I had chlamydia, for the second time btw. It sucked but I was like okay at least it's something curable so it's fine. When the doctor called me that's all she said so I was like okay nothing else. Then I had to go see my regular doctor for a follow up, when I went to see him he told me that I had a herpes breakout.. I was shocked, I was like there's no way that that had happened, because I had no bumps or blisters or anything, so I didn't and still don't understand how I have this. After he told me that everything else he said went in one ear and out the other. I wanted to kill myself, how could I have been so stupid to have done this, except I took precautions for once I did or at least I thought I did. I've made a lot of mistakes in my life but this one hurts, this one affects me for the rest of my life. Am I ever gonna find someone who will date me now, knowing that I have this? Cuz I don't feel like anyone will, I feel like my life isn't worth living anymore, I feel like it's over, what's the point. In a couple weeks I'm getting tested again for everything and getting a blood test and I'm just praying that it was all wrong, praying that cuz of the chlamydia it was all confused and that I'm fine. I don't believe it and I think I'm fine, cuz I don't feel anything. I just want to be fine... My question now is that if it's true and I do have this, am I just supposed to wait everyday wondering if or when I'm going to have a breakout..because if what I had was an outbreak it really didn't feel like anything, it didn't hurt and I didn't have blisters or scabs or anything I just bled, so is that what the rest of them are going to be like, are they gonna get worse, or better? I've read that the first breakout is the worst so is that a good thing then? I just don't understand.. I just feel lonely and confused now
Hi! I'm so sorry to hear, I understand completely how you feel. When i found out i wanted to die too. I had always been careful.
So many people have it, and you have to understand that it is so insignificant in the scheme of things. Talk to someone, find a therapist. I didn't talk to anyone in the first few months and it made things so much worse.
It helps when you understand it fully. Helps when you realize that it's so common, and it helps when you realize that it won't affect your life (except for emotionally). I honestly think that one of the worst things is the stigma for this.
They will get better, the first one sucks. and you can get meds that can stop the breakouts completely.
I'm not going to lie, it's going to take a lot of time, but you will feel better.
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Hey Sam I am a dude and I wouldn't trip if you told me you had Herpes I would just be more precautious and aware of break out times. Life can be crappy and very unfair but your probably young enough to bounce back and love your life! Do not look at the what if's or the WHY me, their is someone out there who is going to love you and treat you like a princess. Hope this helped. Good luck and if your ever in Cali look me up. LOL